Complete Me (The Stark Trilogy)

starvation, and he is the sweetest ambrosia.
    All too soon, though, the pressure is gone as he moves hishand to the radio, rolling through the stations until he settles on something with a heavy techno beat that fills the car. He shifts again and the engine hums as Damien weaves in and out of the minimal traffic. I settle back and let the rhythm pound through me as I watch this man who loves me. This man who I love, too. Who belongs entirely to me.
    The thought comes unbidden, and I find myself frowning because it isn’t true. If he were truly my private property—mine, and mine alone—I could take him away from here. I could save him. I could make all of this legal horribleness go away.
    But I can’t, and that inescapable truth creeps back under my skin, turning my previously light and giddy mood into something dark and foreboding.
    I shift so that I am looking out of the passenger window at the line of trees passing in the night, odd shadows dancing across them, cast from the illumination of our headlights. I shiver, feeling unwound from such an ominous sight, as if we’re driving into a netherworld, but even that won’t save us from the desolate pull of reality.
    I want to keep driving—I want to head east to where the sun will rise in five or so hours. I want to push this car to its limit and never stop. We’re in a bubble right now, safe from those dark grasping shadows. But the moment we stop … the moment we go back …
    No
. I draw a deep breath. I have to be strong. Not for me, but for Damien. “We should head back,” I say, but my voice is so low that I am certain he cannot hear me over the music that now fills the car. I reach for the radio and press the power button, throwing us into silence.
    Damien glances at me, and I see the joy on his face shift to concern as his eyes meet mine. “What is it?”
    “We should go back.” I try to speak up, but my voice is still unnaturally soft, as if my will is fighting me, silently begging meto urge him to run. “You need rest.” I force the words out, pitching my voice to sound natural. “Tomorrow’s going to put us both through the wringer.”
    “All the more reason to keep going as long as we can.”
    I swallow a throat full of tears. “Damien.”
    I expect him to say soothing words. To reassure me that everything will be okay. Instead, he simply brushes my cheek, the gesture sending shock waves through me and once again making tears well in my eyes. I clench my hands into fists and fight against the crying jag that is about to explode out of me. I can’t lose it. Not now. Hell, not ever. If I lose Damien, I’ll cry then. And until I know one way or the other, I want to spend every second doing nothing but simply being with him.
    I manage a smile that is almost genuine and turn to him.
    “Soon.” He hits the accelerator, and the car speeds up.
    “Where are we going?”
    “Someplace I want you to see.”
    My expression must be more confused than I realize, because he laughs softly. “Don’t worry. We’re not running away.”
    I grimace. I almost wish we were.
    He keeps his left hand on the steering wheel, but he rests his right hand on my knee. The touch is more possessive than sexual, as if he simply needs to know that I am there. I lean my head back, torn between wanting to relish the feel of his fingers against my flesh, and the need to rail on him. To scream and yell. To beg and plead for him to fucking
defend
himself. Because Damien Stark is not a man who stands back and gets whipped. He is not a man who puts up with losing.
    He is not a man who hurts the woman he loves.
    And yet he is doing all of these things.
    My thoughts, violent and dangerous, swirl inside me as the last of the city lights fade, leaving nothing but the forested acres that line the highway. The engine is smooth, remarkably quiet,and I am tired. Not simply because of the late hour, but because of everything that has been resting upon me. I close my eyes and relax, only to sit up again with a jolt seconds later when I realize the car is stopped, the engine turned off.
    “What?” I feel groggy, my mind full of cobwebs. “What happened?”
    “You had a nice nap,” Damien says.
    A nap?
    I frown. “How long?”
    “Almost half an hour.”
    That startles me to wakefulness, and I sit up and look around. We appear to be in the parking lot of a rustic restaurant with plenty of outdoor seating. It’s closed now, the empty picnic tables seeming eerie rather than