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muscles in heroic resolve to carry his burden to all eternity.  And ages passed in the superhuman labour, amidst the rush of circling worlds; in the plaintive murmur of sorrowful voices urging him to desist before it was too late — till the mysterious power that had laid upon him the giant task seemed at last to seek his destruction.  With terror he felt an irresistible hand shaking him by the shoulder, while the chorus of voices swelled louder into an agonised prayer to go, go before it is too late.  He felt himself slipping, losing his balance, as something dragged at his legs, and he fell.  With a faint cry he glided out of the anguish of perishing creation into an imperfect waking that seemed to be still under the spell of his dream.
    “What?  What?” he murmured sleepily, without moving or opening his eyes.  His head still felt heavy, and he had not the courage to raise his eyelids.  In his ears there still lingered the sound of entreating whisper. — ”Am I awake? — Why do I hear the voices?” he argued to himself, hazily. — ”I cannot get rid of the horrible nightmare yet. — I have been very drunk. — What is that shaking me?  I am dreaming yet — I must open my eyes and be done with it.  I am only half awake, it is evident.”
    He made an effort to shake off his stupor and saw a face close to his, glaring at him with staring eyeballs.  He closed his eyes again in amazed horror and sat up straight in the chair, trembling in every limb.  What was this apparition? — His own fancy, no doubt. — His nerves had been much tried the day before — and then the drink!  He would not see it again if he had the courage to look. — He would look directly. — Get a little steadier first. — So. — Now.
    He looked.  The figure of a woman standing in the steely light, her hands stretched forth in a suppliant gesture, confronted him from the far-off end of the verandah; and in the space between him and the obstinate phantom floated the murmur of words that fell on his ears in a jumble of torturing sentences, the meaning of which escaped the utmost efforts of his brain.  Who spoke the Malay words?  Who ran away?  Why too late — and too late for what?  What meant those words of hate and love mixed so strangely together, the ever-recurring names falling on his ears again and again — Nina, Dain; Dain, Nina?  Dain was dead, and Nina was sleeping, unaware of the terrible experience through which he was now passing.  Was he going to be tormented for ever, sleeping or waking, and have no peace either night or day?  What was the meaning of this?
    He shouted the last words aloud.  The shadowy woman seemed to shrink and recede a little from him towards the doorway, and there was a shriek.  Exasperated by the incomprehensible nature of his torment, Almayer made a rush upon the apparition, which eluded his grasp, and he brought up heavily against the wall.  Quick as lightning he turned round and pursued fiercely the mysterious figure fleeing from him with piercing shrieks that were like fuel to the flames of his anger.  Over the furniture, round the overturned table, and now he had it cornered behind Nina’s chair.  To the left, to the right they dodged, the chair rocking madly between them, she sending out shriek after shriek at every feint, and he growling meaningless curses through his hard set teeth.  “Oh! the fiendish noise that split his head and seemed to choke his breath. — It would kill him. — It must be stopped!”  An insane desire to crush that yelling thing induced him to cast himself recklessly over the chair with a desperate grab, and they came down together in a cloud of dust amongst the splintered wood.  The last shriek died out under him in a faint gurgle, and he had secured the relief of absolute silence.
    He looked at the woman’s face under him.  A real woman!  He knew her.  By all that is wonderful!  Taminah!  He jumped up ashamed of his fury and stood perplexed, wiping his forehead.  The girl struggled to a kneeling posture and embraced his legs in a frenzied prayer for mercy.
    “Don’t be afraid,” he said, raising her.  “I shall not hurt you.  Why do you come to my house in the night?  And if you had to come, why not go behind the curtain where the women sleep?”
    “The place behind the curtain is empty,” gasped Taminah, catching her breath between the words.  “There are no women in your house any more, Tuan.  I saw the old Mem go