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looked upon Almayer as their patron.  They prowled about his premises and picked their living there, sure that nothing worse could befall them than a shower of curses when they got in the way of the white man, whom they trusted and liked, and called a fool amongst themselves.  In the house, which Almayer entered through the back verandah, the only living thing that met his eyes was his small monkey which, hungry and unnoticed for the last two days, began to cry and complain in monkey language as soon as it caught sight of the familiar face.  Almayer soothed it with a few words and ordered Ali to bring in some bananas, then while Ali was gone to get them he stood in the doorway of the front verandah looking at the chaos of overturned furniture.  Finally he picked up the table and sat on it while the monkey let itself down from the roof-stick by its chain and perched on his shoulder.  When the bananas came they had their breakfast together; both hungry, both eating greedily and showering the skins round them recklessly, in the trusting silence of perfect friendship.  Ali went away, grumbling, to cook some rice himself, for all the women about the house had disappeared; he did not know where.  Almayer did not seem to care, and, after he finished eating, he sat on the table swinging his legs and staring at the river as if lost in thought.
    After some time he got up and went to the door of a room on the right of the verandah.  That was the office.  The office of Lingard and Co.  He very seldom went in there.  There was no business now, and he did not want an office.  The door was locked, and he stood biting his lower lip, trying to think of the place where the key could be.  Suddenly he remembered: in the women’s room hung upon a nail.  He went over to the doorway where the red curtain hung down in motionless folds, and hesitated for a moment before pushing it aside with his shoulder as if breaking down some solid obstacle.  A great square of sunshine entering through the window lay on the floor.  On the left he saw Mrs. Almayer’s big wooden chest, the lid thrown back, empty; near it the brass nails of Nina’s European trunk shone in the large initials N. A. on the cover.  A few of Nina’s dresses hung on wooden pegs, stiffened in a look of offended dignity at their abandonment.  He remembered making the pegs himself and noticed that they were very good pegs.  Where was the key?  He looked round and saw it near the door where he stood.  It was red with rust.  He felt very much annoyed at that, and directly afterwards wondered at his own feeling.  What did it matter?  There soon would be no key — no door — nothing!  He paused, key in hand, and asked himself whether he knew well what he was about.  He went out again on the verandah and stood by the table thinking.  The monkey jumped down, and, snatching a banana skin, absorbed itself in picking it to shreds industriously.
    “Forget!” muttered Almayer, and that word started before him a sequence of events, a detailed programme of things to do.  He knew perfectly well what was to be done now.  First this, then that, and then forgetfulness would come easy.  Very easy.  He had a fixed idea that if he should not forget before he died he would have to remember to all eternity.  Certain things had to be taken out of his life, stamped out of sight, destroyed, forgotten.  For a long time he stood in deep thought, lost in the alarming possibilities of unconquerable memory, with the fear of death and eternity before him.  “Eternity!” he said aloud, and the sound of that word recalled him out of his reverie.  The monkey started, dropped the skin, and grinned up at him amicably.
    He went towards the office door and with some difficulty managed to open it.  He entered in a cloud of dust that rose under his feet.
    Books open with torn pages bestrewed the floor; other books lay about grimy and black, looking as if they had never been opened.  Account books.  In those books he had intended to keep day by day a record of his rising fortunes.  Long time ago.  A very long time.  For many years there has been no record to keep on the blue and red ruled pages!  In the middle of the room the big office desk, with one of its legs broken, careened over like the hull of a stranded ship; most of the drawers had fallen out, disclosing heaps of paper yellow with age and dirt.  The revolving office chair stood in its place, but he found the