Coyote blue

going."
    "You can't. I'll tell them tomorrow. And once you're gone you can't call or write either. That's how the cops will find you."
    "How do you know that?"
    "That's how they caught my brother," Billy said. "He wrote a letter from New Mexico. The FBI had him in two days after that."
    "But…"
    "Look, Samson, you killed a cop. I know you didn't mean to, but that won't matter. If they catch you they'll shoot you before you get a chance to tell what happened."
    "But everyone saw."
    "Everyone there was Crow, Samson. They won't believe a bunch of fucking Indians."
    "But Enos was Crow – part Crow, anyway."
    "He was an apple, only red on the outside."
    Samson started to protest again but Billy shushed him. "Start thinking about where you're going to go."
    "Where do you think I should go?"
    "I don't know. You just need to disappear. Don't tell me where you're going when you figure it out, either. I don't want to know. You could try and pass for white. With those light eyes you might pull it off. Change your name, dye your hair."
    "I don't know how to be white."
    "How hard can it be?" Billy said.
    Samson wanted to talk to someone besides Billy Two Irons, someone who didn't make as much sense: Pokey. He realized that for all his craziness, all his ravings, all his drinking and ritual mumbo jumbo, Pokey was the person he most trusted in the world. But Billy was right: going home would be a mistake. Instead he tried to imagine what Pokey would say about escaping into the white world. Well, first, Samson thought, he would never admit that there was a white world. According to Pokey there was only the world of the Crow – of family and clans and medicine and balance and Old Man Coyote. The white man was simply a disease that had put the Crow world out of balance.
    Samson tried to look into the future to see where he would go, what he would do, but any plans he had ever made – and there hadn't been many – were no longer valid, and the future was a thick, white fog that would allow him to see only as far as the bus station in Sheridan, Wyoming. He felt a panic rising in his chest like a scream, then it came to him: this was just a different type of Coyote Blue. He was trying to look into the future too far and it was ruining his balance. He needed to focus on right now, and eventually he would learn what he needed to know when the future got to him. What did Pokey always say? "If you are going to learn, you need to forget what you know."
    "Don't use all your money for the bus ticket," Billy said. "Once you get out of the area you can hitchhike."
    "Did you learn all this when your brother got in trouble?"
    "Yeah, he writes me letters from prison about what he did wrong."
    "He put a bomb in a BIA office. How many letters can that take?"
    "Not that. What he did wrong to get caught."
    "Oh," Samson said.
    Two hours later Samson was climbing on a bus headed for Elko, Nevada, carrying with him everything he owned: twenty-three dollars, a pocketknife, and a small buckskin bundle. He took a window seat in the back of the bus and stared out over the dark countryside, really seeing nothing, as he tried to imagine where he would end up. His fear of getting away was almost greater than his fear of being caught. At least if he were caught his fate would be in someone else's hands.
    After an hour or so on the road Samson sensed that the bus was slowing down. He looked around for a reaction from the other passengers, but except for an old lady in the front who was engrossed in a romance novel, they were all asleep. The driver downshifted and Samson felt the big diesel at his back roar as the bus pulled into the passing lane. Out his window he saw the back of a long, powder-blue car. As the bus moved up Samson watched the big car glide below him, seeming to go on forever. He saw the back of the driver's head, then his face. It was the fat salesman from his vision. Samson twisted in his seat, trying to get a better look as they passed. The salesman seemed to see him through the blackout windows of the bus and raised a bottle of Coke as if toasting Samson.
    "Did you see that?" Samson cried to the old lady. "Did you see that car?"
    The old lady turned to him and shook her head, and a cowboy in the next seat groaned. "Did you see who was in that car?" Samson asked the bus driver, who snickered and shook his head.
    The cowboy in the next seat was awake now and he pushed his hat from over his eyes. "Well, son, now that you got me wetting myself