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Darkness Before Dawn

Darkness Before Dawn

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Autoren: Claire Contreras
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gasp and bite down on my lip when I feel the dildo thing sliding inside me slowly.
    "Relax," the doctor tells me.
    I take a deep breath and try to do as I'm told. Dean grabs on to the hand closest to his and holds it in both of his. I can only stare at him as he stares back and suddenly this feels way too intimate. All my thoughts vanish when I hear ruffling on the monitor beside me and see a little peanut pop on the screen me.
    "There's your baby," the doctor says, pointing at it.
    "It's so...tiny," I muse, in awe despite myself, as tears well in my eyes again.
    Dr. Kellogg laughs. "You're still early in the pregnancy."
    When Dean squeezes my hand, I start to cry again.
    "I can't do this," I whimper as Dean soothes me by caressing my hair. I want to tell him to stop. Demand him to stop. But I can't. Instead, I lean into him and let him comfort me as I close my eyes and pretend it's Cole. But it's not, and it won't be, and I hate it. I hate that they've not only taken me from him, but also robbed us of this moment together. He should be the one sitting beside me watching our baby with me.
    On the ride back home, I'm still sniffling back tears and distantly staring at the houses we're driving by. The last thing I expected to hear today was that I was pregnant. What am I supposed to do now?
    "Alex used to go out with your mom," Dean says suddenly, snapping me out of my daydream.
    "What?" I ask, turning my head slowly to look at him.
    "That's what I heard. That's what I know. He hadn't seen her in a while before he went to your house that night...when you were little," he says, giving me a sad smile. "She wouldn't return his phone calls, and he showed up there. But I don't know what happened after that. Nobody will talk about it. I just know things went horribly wrong that night."
    "That's an understatement," I scoff.
    "Sorry, chick. You've been through a lot."
    I nod, contradicting my thoughts. A lot doesn't even begin to cover it.

 

    Cole and I went to get an ultrasound done today. We were able to see our baby boy moving around on the screen. I've never seen Cole so happy before, he keeps smiling and kissing my bump as he talks to the baby about baseball games he's going to take him to. The sparkle in his green eyes is so beautiful—it almost makes me forget all of the heartache we've been through. This moment makes it all worth it. My heart melts when he runs his hand lightly down my arm and smiles at me, showing me that dimple that I love. Yes, this moment definitely makes it all worth it.
     
    "Blake, I brought you food," he says slowly, at a distance, breaking my gaze away from the beautiful smile before me. "Blake! Wake up."
    "No! No! No!" I shout as tears trickle down my face. It was just a dream? Just a dream.
    "Hey, it's okay, you're okay," Dean says quietly.
    I sit up quickly and glare at him. "I am not okay! I am not okay!" I shriek before taking deep breaths and wiping my face. "Don't tell me that. Ever. I'm not fucking okay. I need to get out of here!"
    "Blake," he says with a sigh as he looks at me sadly, "let's go upstairs so you can eat."
    "Right now?" I ask as I wipe the tears from my face.
    "Yes, right now." He takes a deep breath and runs his fingers through his unruly hair. "I just don't know what the fuck Alex is thinking. He's fucking crazy. And Benny..." Dean says his name as if it leaves a bad taste in his mouth, which is precisely the way I feel about Benny.
    I get up and follow him upstairs. They've been letting me come upstairs every day now. I guess they figured out that I really wouldn't run. Not with the threats they hold over my head about Cole and Aubry. When we round the corner, I'm surprised to see a guy with short blond hair sitting on a stool around the kitchen island. His back is facing us and he turns in his seat when he hears us approach. Both of our eyes widen when we look at each other, and I force myself to look away quickly, biting the inside of my lip before my jaw hits the floor.
    "The fuck are you doing here, Con?" Dean asks from behind me.
    "Grace asked me to wait for her while she showers," he replies with a shrug, not taking his eyes off me.
    "Huh. When did you start dating?" Dean asks curiously, as I look between the two of them, wondering who the hell Grace is.
    "Not long ago," the guy replies vaguely before returning his attention to me. His eyes travel my body, but something about the way he does it doesn't make me feel uncomfortable. When he looks back into my

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