Dead to the World

Sookie—I wanted to come over to talk to you when you had somewhat recovered from the unfortunate events of earlier this month.
    “Unfortunate events,” my round rear end. The bruises had finally faded, but I had a knee that still ached in the cold, and I suspected that it always would. Every injury I had incurred had been in the course of rescuing my cheating boyfriend from his imprisonment by a group of vampires that included his former flame, Lorena. I had yet to figure out why Bill had been so infatuated with Lorena that he’d answered her summons to Mississippi.
    Probably, you have a lot of questions about what happened.
    Damn straight.
    If you’ll talk to me face-to-face, come to the front door and let me in.
    Yikes. I hadn’t seen that one coming. I pondered for a minute. Deciding that while I didn’t trust Bill anymore, I didn’t believe that he would physically harm me, I went back through the house to the front door. I opened it and called, “Okay, come on in.”
    He emerged from the woods surrounding the clearing in which my old house stood. I ached at the sight of him. Bill was broad-shouldered and lean from his life of farming the land next to mine. He was hard and tough from his years as a Confederate soldier, before his death in 1870. Bill’s nose was straight off a Greek vase. His hair was dark brown and combed straight back, and his eyes were just as dark. He looked exactly the same as he had while we were dating, and he always would.
    He hesitated before he crossed the threshold, but I’d given him permission, and I moved aside so he could step past me into the living room filled with old, comfortable furniture and neat as a pin.
    “Thank you,” he said in his cold, smooth voice, a voice that still gave me a twinge of sheer lust. Many things had gone wrong between us, but they hadn’t started in bed. “I wanted to talk to you before I left.”
    “Where are you going?” I tried to sound as calm as he.
    “To Peru. The queen’s orders.”
    “Still working on your, ah, database?” I knew almost nothing about computers, but Bill had studied hard to make himself computer literate.
    “Yes. I’ve got a little more research to do. A very old vampire in Lima has a great fund of knowledge about those of our race on his continent, and I have an appointment to confer with him. I’ll do some sight-seeing while I’m down there.”
    I fought the urge to offer Bill a bottle of synthetic blood, which would have been the hospitable thing to do. “Have a seat,” I said curtly, and nodded at the sofa. I sat on the edge of the old recliner catty-cornered to it. Then a silence fell, a silence that made me even more conscious of how unhappy I was.
    “How’s Bubba?” I asked finally.
    “He’s in New Orleans right now,” Bill said. “The queen likes to keep him around from time to time, and he was so visible here over the last month that it seemed like a good idea to take him elsewhere. He’ll be back soon.”
    You’d recognize Bubba if you saw him; everyone knows his face. But he hadn’t been “brought over” too successfully. Probably the morgue attendant, who happened to be a vampire, should have ignored the tiny spark of life. But since he was a great fan, he hadn’t been able to resist the attempt, and now the entire southern vampire community shuffled Bubba around and tried to keep him from public view.
    Another silence fell. I’d planned on taking off my shoes and uniform, putting on a cuddly robe, and watching television with a Freschetta pizza by my side. It was a humble plan, but it was my own. Instead, here I was, suffering.
    “If you have something to say, you better go on and say it,” I told him.
    He nodded, almost to himself. “I have to explain,” he said. His white hands arranged themselves in his lap. “Lorena and I—”
    I flinched involuntarily. I never wanted to hear that name again. He’d dumped me for Lorena.
    “I have to tell you,” he said, almost angrily. He’d seen me twitch. “Give me this chance.” After a second, I waved a hand to tell him to continue.
    “The reason I went to Jackson when she called me is that I couldn’t help myself,” he said.
    My eyebrows flew up. I’d heard that before. It means, “I have no self-control,” or, “It seemed worth it at the time, and I wasn’t thinking north of my belt.”
    “We were lovers long ago. As Eric says he told you, vampire liaisons don’t tend to last long, though they’re very intense