Definitely Dead

remember thinking that it was dangerous to run with a pointed object in my hand. I thought about Clete’s thick finger probing between my legs, and I didn’t feel so bad about what I’d done. In the next few seconds, while I was jumping over a downed tree snagged in some thorny vines, the screwdriver slipped from my hand and I had no time to search for it.
    After running for some time, we came to the swamp. Swamps and bayous abound in Louisiana, of course. The bayous and swamps are rich in wildlife, and they can be beautiful to look at and maybe tour in a canoe or something. But to plunge into on foot, in pouring rain, they suck.
    Maybe from a tracking point of view this swamp was a good thing, because once we were in the water we wouldn’t be leaving any scent. But from my personal point of view, the swamp was awful, because it was dirty and had snakes and alligators and God knows what else.
    I had to brace myself to wade in after Quinn, and the water was dark and cool since it was still spring. In the summer, it would feel like wading through warm soup. On a day so overcast, once we were under the overhanging trees, we would be almost invisible to our pursuers, which was good; but the same conditions also meant that any lurking wildlife would be seen approximately when we stepped on it, or when it bit us. Not so good.
    Quinn was smiling broadly, and I remembered that some tigers have lots of swamps in their natural habitat. At least one of us was happy.
    The water got deeper and deeper, and soon we were swimming. There again, Quinn swam with a large grace that was kind of daunting to me. I was trying with all my might just to be quiet and stealthy. For a second, I was so cold and so frightened I began to think that . . . no, it wouldn’t be better to still be in the van . . . but it was a near thing, just for a second.
    I was so tired. My muscles were shaking with the aftermath of the adrenalin surge of our escape, and then I’d dashed through the woods, and before that there’d been the fight in the apartment, and before that . . . oh my God, I’d had sex with Quinn. Sort of. Yes, definitely sex. More or less.
    We hadn’t spoken since we’d gotten out of the van, and suddenly I remembered I’d seen his arm bleeding when we’d burst out of the van. I’d stabbed him with the Phillips head, at least once, while I was freeing him.
    And here I was, whining. “Quinn,” I said. “Let me help you.”
    “Help me?” he asked. I couldn’t read his tone, and since he was forging through the dark water ahead of me, I couldn’t read his face. But his mind, ah, that was full of snarled confusion and anger that he couldn’t find a place to stuff. “Did I help you? Did I free you? Did I protect you from the fucking Weres? No, I let that son of a bitch stick his finger up you, and I watched, I couldn’t do anything.”
    Oh. Male pride. “You got my hands free,” I pointed out. “And you can help me now.”
    “How?” he turned to me, and he was deeply upset. I realized that he was a guy who took his protecting very seriously. It was one of God’s mysterious imbalances, that men are stronger than women. My grandmother told me it was his way of balancing the scales, since women are tougher and more resilient. I’m not sure that’s true, but I knew that Quinn, perhaps because he was a big, formidable guy and, perhaps because he was a weretiger who could turn into this fabulously beautiful and lethal beast, was in a funk because he hadn’t killed all our attackers and saved me from being sullied by their touch.
    I myself would have preferred that scenario a lot, especially considering our present predicament. But events hadn’t fallen out that way. “Quinn,” I said, and my voice was just as weary as the rest of me, “they have to have been heading somewhere around here. Somewhere in this swamp.”
    “That’s why we turned off,” he said in agreement. I saw a snake twined around a tree branch overhanging the water right behind him, and my face must have looked as shocked as I felt, because Quinn whipped around faster than I could think and had that snake in his hand and snapped it once, twice, and then the snake was dead and floating away in the sluggish water. He seemed to feel a lot better after that. “We don’t know where we’re going, but we’re sure it’s away from them. Right?” he asked.
    “There aren’t any other brains up and running in my range,” I said, after a moment’s