Entwined With You

Gideon’s possessiveness toward me was clear in the way he gripped me, and how he steered me into our suite in front of him with his hand at the small of my back. He made me feel safe and accepted, even though he was in his work persona and I wasn’t at my best, which reflected on him.
    I loved him for that.
    I just wished he weren’t so quiet. It made me worry. And it totally made me doubt my decision to push him after he’d told me to stop more than once. What the hell did I know about what he needed to get better?
    As the manager continued to talk to Gideon, I moved slowly throughthe massive living area, with its wide-open terrace and white couches spread across bamboo floors. The master bedroom was equally impressive, with a large bed framed by mosquito netting and another open terrace that led directly to a private swimming pool with an infinity edge that made it look like part of the shimmering ocean just beyond it.
    A warm breeze blew in, kissing my face and sifting through my hair. The rising moon cast a trail over the ocean, and the distant sounds of laughter and reggae made me feel isolated in a way that wasn’t quite pleasant.
    Nothing was right when Gideon was off.
    “Do you like it?” he asked quietly.
    I turned to face him and heard the front door shut in the other room. “It’s fantastic.”
    He gave a curt nod. “I ordered dinner in. Tilapia and rice, some fresh fruit and cheese.”
    “Awesome. I’m starving.”
    “There are clothes for you in the closet and drawers. You’ll find bikinis, too, but the pool and beach are private, so you don’t need them unless you want them. If there’s anything missing, just let me know and we’ll get it brought in.”
    I stared at him, noting the several feet between us. His eyes glittered in the soft light cast by the dimmed cam lighting and bedside table lamps. He was edgy and distant, and I felt tears building in the back of my throat.
    “Gideon …” I held my hand out to him. “Did I make a mistake? Did I break something between us?”
    “Angel.” He sighed. He came close enough to catch my hand and lift it to his lips. Up close I could see how his gaze darted away, as if he had a hard time looking at me. A sick feeling settled in my gut. “Crossfire.”
    The one word came out so low, I almost thought I’d imagined it. Then he pulled me into his arms and kissed me sweetly.
    “Ace.” Pushing onto my tiptoes, I cupped the back of his neck and kissed him back with everything I had.
    He pulled away too quickly. “Let’s change for dinner before it gets here. I could stand being in less clothes.”
    I stepped back reluctantly, acknowledging that he had to be hot in his suit, but still sensing that something wasn’t right. That feeling worsened when Gideon left the room to change and I realized we wouldn’t be sharing the same bedroom.
    I kicked off my shoes in the walk-in closet that was filled with way too many clothes for a weekend trip. Most were white. Gideon liked me in white. I suspected it was because he thought of me as his angel.
    Did he still think of me that way now? Or was I the devil? A selfish bitch who made him face demons he’d rather forget?
    I changed into a simple cotton slip dress in black, which matched my funereal mood. I felt like something had died between us.
    Gideon and I had stumbled many times before, but I’d never felt this level of withdrawal from him. This discomfort and unease.
    I’d felt it with other guys, when they were getting ready to tell me they didn’t want to see me anymore.
    Dinner arrived and was neatly laid out on the terrace table overlooking the secluded beach. I saw a white tent cabana on the sand and remembered Gideon’s dream of us rolling around on a chaise for two by the water, making love.
    My heart hurt.
    I gulped two glasses of crisp, fruity white wine and went through the motions of eating, even though I’d lost my appetite. Gideon sat across from me in loose white linen drawstring pants and nothing else,which just made everything worse. He was so handsome, so goddamned sexy it was impossible not to stare at him. But he was miles away from me. A silent, forceful presence that made me
want
with every fiber of my soul.
    The emotional gulf between us was growing. I couldn’t reach across it.
    I pushed my plate away once I’d cleared it and realized Gideon had hardly eaten at all. He’d just forked his food around and helped me drain the bottle of wine.
    Taking a deep breath, I