Existence 03 - Ceaseless

stepped out of the building leaving Dank sitting there alone like that bugged me. I rubbed the ball of my hand over my ache and kept going. I had a study group in thirty minutes.
    ***
    I hadn’t expected to see Jay sitting on the steps of my dorm today. I wasn’t really in the mood for it either but perhaps he was here to pick up the redhead. I still didn’t know her name. Could have been who m Dank was screwing in the dark.
    I smiled at Jay when his eyes met mine. He was a nice guy. At least he kept it real. He didn’t act like he was just interested in you. He let you know he wasn’t a one - woman kind of man. I h ad to respect that.
    “Hello , Jay,” I said as I reached the steps. I didn’t figure I had to stick around for small talk.
    Jay stood up blocking my path up the stairs, “Pagan, hey.”
    Okay well we’d said our polite greetings. I had assignments to work on. I started to step around him but his hand reached out and took my hand. “Wait. I wanted to talk to you.”
    Well, crap. “’Bout what?” I asked looking back up at the entrance so that he got the hint I had other things to get to.
    “I know I screwed up things last week. I was an idiot. But you are all I’ve thought about for two weeks . I can’t get you out of my head. Please, just go have coffee with me. At least let ’ s be friends. I miss you.”
    Miranda was busy with Nathan all the time and now that I didn’t have Dank hanging around I was lonely. A friend would be nice. With Jay I knew where I stood. He was easy for me to read. No secrets, no sexy smoldering looks to give me the wrong idea.
    “Friends would be good. I need a friend. Miranda spends more time on the UT campus with Nathan than she does here.”
    The big goofy grin I used to love broke out on Jay’s face. “Can we go have coffee now? Or do you have plans with a textbook?”
    The books could wait. “Let me go drop this thing off in my room and I’ll be right back. Please feel free to ask out anyone who walks by that interest s you,” I teased.
    Jay’s frown appeared and I realized he didn’t think it was funny. “It was a joke. If we’re gonna be friends then you have to relax,” I said before opening the door and heading up to my room.
    Once I reached my door the sounds of moaning stopped me from turning the knob. I pressed my ear against the door and I heard Miranda cry out in obvious pleasure. Oh , wow. She was actually having sex with this guy. Backing away from the door I went over to Gee’s door and knocked softly.
    Gee opened the door an d reached up and pulled a cotton ball out of her ear. “What , you don’t want to walk in on the porn show over there?” Gee asked .
    “Not really, no. Could I leave my bag in here ? Jay is waiting for me to go have coffee.”
    Gee scowled and nodded her head. She reached out and took the bag from my hands. “Yeah, fine.” What was her problem? It was just my bag.
    “How long have they been over there?” I asked looking toward my room where a grunt made me cringe. I could have done without hearing that.
    “Long enough. They’re rabbits. Fucking rabbits.”
    Poor Gee, stuck in here listening to them. “You want to go have coffee with me and Jay?”
    Gee cocked her pierced eyebrow and shook her head, “No thanks. I’m good. The cotton balls work.”
    “Okay, if you’re sure.”
    Miranda’s “Oh God,” echoed down the hall. T he girl was crazy. She was going to get caught. I walked over to our door and banged on it, “ Put a sock in it, Miranda.”
    Gee shook her head and closed the door as I walked back by.
    Jay was standing just outside the door waiting for me. He was also alone. Surprising. “Sorry that took so long. Miranda and Nathan are in our room…” I trailed off.
    Nathan laughed, “Yeah, well I’m just glad they moved it over here. I was getting tired of it.”
    “What? You mean this isn’t the first time?”
    Jay shook his head, “Nope. Not by a long shot.”
    I couldn’t believe she was having wild loud sex with a guy she’d just met. No wonder she was gone all the time. She was in over her head way too fast. We were going to have to talk about this. The first relationship she has after Wyatt and she jumps into the physical part in less than a two week s .
    “I had no idea.”
    Jay shrugged, “It happens. They are really into each other. Nathan talks about her nonstop. It may be a little early for the sex but they both seem to be unable to keep their hands off each