Fifty Shades Trilogy 02 - Fifty Shades Darker

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    My head is on his chest in the no-go area, my cheek nestled against the springy hair on his sternum. I am panting, glowing, and I resist the urge to pucker my lips and kiss him.  
    I just lie on top of him, catching my breath. He smoothes my hair, and his hand runs down my back, caressing me as his breathing calms.
    “You are so beautiful.”  
    I lift my head to gaze at him, my expression skeptical. He frowns in response and sits up quickly, taking me by surprise, his arm sweeping round to hold me in place. I clutch his biceps as we are nose to nose.
    “You. Are. Beautiful,” he says again, his tone emphatic.
    “And you’re amazingly sweet sometimes.” I kiss him gently.
    He lifts me and eases out of me. I wince as he does. Leaning forward, he kisses me softly.
    “You have no idea how attractive you are, do you?”
    I flush. Why’s he going on about this?
    “All those boys pursuing you—that isn’t enough of a clue?”
    “Boys? What boys?”
    “You want the list?” Christian frowns. “The photographer, he’s crazy about you, that boy in the hardware store, your roommate’s older brother. Your boss,” he adds bitterly.
    “Oh, Christian, that’s just not true.”
    “Trust me. They want you. They want what’s mine.” He pulls me against him, and I lift my arms to his shoulders, my hands in his hair, regarding him with amusement.
    “Mine,” he repeats, his eyes glowing possessively.
    “Yes, yours.” I reassure him, smiling. He looks mollified, and I feel perfectly comfortable naked in his lap on a bed in the full light of a Saturday afternoon. Who would have thought? The lipstick marks remain on his exquisite body. I note some smears on the duvet cover though, and wonder briefly what Mrs. Jones will make of them.
    “The line is still intact,” I murmur and bravely trace the mark on his shoulder with my index finger. He stiffens, blinking suddenly. “I want to go exploring.”
    He regards me skeptically.
    “The apartment?”
    “No. I was thinking of the treasure map that we’ve drawn on you.” My fingers itch to touch him.
    His eyebrows lift in surprise, and he blinks with uncertainty. I rub my nose against his.
    “And what would that entail exactly, Miss Steele?”
    I lift my hand from his shoulder and run my fingertips down his face.
    “I just want to touch you everywhere I’m allowed.”
    Christian catches my index finger in his teeth, biting down gently.
    “Ow,” I protest and he grins, a low growl coming from his throat.
    “Okay,” he says, releasing my finger, but his voice is laced with apprehension. “Wait.” He leans behind me, lifting me again, and removes his condom, dropping it unceremoniously on the floor beside the bed.
    “I hate those things. I’ve a good mind to call Dr. Greene around to give you a shot.”
    “You think the top ob-gyn in Seattle is going to come running?”
    “I can be very persuasive,” he murmurs, hooking my hair behind my ear. “Franco’s done a great job on your hair. I like these layers.”
    What?
    “Stop changing the subject.”
    He shifts me back so I’m straddling him, leaning on his propped-up knees, my feet on either side of his hips. He leans back on his arms.
    “Touch away,” he says without humor. He looks nervous, but he’s trying to hide it.  
    Keeping my eyes on his, I reach down and trace my finger underneath the lipstick line, across his finely sculptured abdominal muscles. He flinches and I stop.
    “I don’t have to,” I whisper.
    “No, it’s fine. Just takes some . . . readjustment on my part. No one’s touched me for a long time,” he murmurs.
    “Mrs. Robinson?” The words pop unbidden out of my mouth, and amazingly, I manage to keep all bitterness and rancor out of my voice.
    He nods, his discomfort obvious. “I don’t want to talk about her. It will sour your good mood.”
    “I can handle it.”
    “No, you can’t, Ana. You see red whenever I mention her. My past is my past. It’s a fact. I can’t change it. I’m lucky that you don’t have one, because it would drive me crazy if you did.”
    I frown at him, but I don’t want to fight. “Drive you crazy? More than you are already?” I smile, hoping to lighten the atmosphere between us.
    His lips twitch. “Crazy for you,” he whispers.
    My heart swells with joy.
    “Shall I call Dr. Flynn?”
    “I don’t think that will be necessary,” he says dryly.
    Shifting back so he drops his legs, I place my fingers back on his stomach