Forever Odd

crossing the porch, I considered phoning Chief Wyatt Porter. I worried, however, that Danny might perish while I placed the call and waited for the authorities. The front door stood ajar.
        I glanced back and saw that Dr. Jessup preferred to haunt the yard instead of the house. He lingered in the grass.
        His wounds had vanished. He appeared as he had appeared before Death had found him-and he looked scared.
        Until they move on from this world, even the dead can know fear. You would think they have nothing to lose, but sometimes they are wretched with anxiety, not about what might lie Beyond, but about those whom they have left behind.
        I pushed the door inward. It moved as smoothly, as silently as the mechanism of a well-crafted, spring-loaded trap.

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    TWO
        
        FROSTED FLAME-SHAPED BULBS IN SILVER-PLATED sconces revealed white paneled doors, all closed, along a hallway, and stairs rising into darkness.
        Honed instead of polished, the marble floor of the foyer was cloud-white, looked cloud-soft. The ruby, teal, and sapphire Persian rug seemed to float like a magic taxi waiting for a passenger with a taste for adventure.
        I crossed the threshold, and the cloud floor supported me. The rug idled underfoot.
        In such a situation, closed doors usually draw me. Over the years, I have a few times endured a dream in which, during a search, I open a white paneled door and am skewered through the throat by something sharp, cold, and as thick as an iron fence stave.
        Always, I wake before I die, gagging as if still impaled. After that, I am usually up for the day, no matter how early the hour.
        My dreams aren’t reliably prophetic. I have never, for instance, ridden bareback on an elephant, naked, while having sexual relations with Jennifer Aniston.
        Seven years have passed since I had that memorable night fantasy as a boy of fourteen. After so much time, I no longer have any expectation that the Aniston dream will prove predictive.
        I’m pretty sure the scenario with the white paneled door will come to pass. I can’t say whether I will be merely wounded, disabled for life, or killed.
        You might think that when presented with white paneled doors, I would avoid them. And so I would… if I had not learned that fate cannot be sidestepped or outrun. The price I paid for that lesson has left my heart an almost empty purse, with just two coins or three clinking at the bottom.
        I prefer to kick open each door and confront what waits rather than to turn away-and thereafter be required to remain alert, at all times, for the creak of the turning knob, for the quiet rasp of hinges behind my back.
        On this occasion, the doors did not attract me. Intuition led me to the stairs, and swiftly up.
        The dark second-floor hallway was brightened only by the pale outfall of light from two rooms.
        I’ve had no dreams about open doors. I went to the first of these two without hesitation, and stepped into a bedroom.
        The blood of violence daunts even those with much experience of it. The splash, the spray, the drip and drizzle create infinite Rorschach patterns in every one of which the observer reads the same meaning: the fragility of his existence, the truth of his mortality.
        A desperation of crimson hand prints on a wall were the victim’s sign language: Spare me, help me, remember me, avenge me.
        On the floor, near the foot of the bed, lay the body of Dr. Wilbur Jessup, savagely battered.
        Even for one who know s that the body is but the vessel and that the spirit is the essence, a brutalized cadaver depresses, offends.
        This world, which has the potential to be Eden, is instead the hell before Hell. In our arrogance, we have made it so.
        The door to the adjacent bathroom stood half open. I nudged it with one foot.
        Although blood-dimmed by a drenched shade, the bedroom lamplight reached into the bathroom to reveal no surprises.
        Aware that this was a crime scene, I touched nothing. I stepped cautiously, with respect for evidence.
        Some wish to believe that greed is the root of murder, but greed seldom motivates a killer. Most homicide has the same dreary cause: The bloody-minded murder those whom they envy, and for what they covet.
        That is not merely a central tragedy of human existence: It is also the political history of