Forever Too Far

something borrowed , and something blue.
         “It’s time for us to go down now,” Dad said to me before walking over to open the door. I followed him and then he led me down the stairs and out the front door. I was to walk under the house and come through a n archway of pink roses and white twinkling lights.
     Slipping my hand into the crook of my dad’s arm, I let him lead me.

 
    RUSH
     
         I had waited at the bottom of the steps as each person came down after taking her the gifts I sent up. When her father had gone up I’d known I couldn’t wait around this time. I had to get outside. I wanted to be the one taking the gifts up to her but she’d been adamant that I couldn’t see her before the wedding.
         Standing under the pergola covered in ivy and white roses on the sand between my house and the gulf I waited with the minister on one side and Grant on the other side.
         “You nervous?’ Grant asked.
         “That she’s gonna decide not to walk down that aisle? Yes,” I replied.
         Grant laughed and shook his head. “That’s not what I meant.”
         “One day you’ll understand. And when you do I’m going to laugh my ass off.”
         “Not a chance in hell,” he replied.
         Bethy appeared under the pink roses, which meant that Blaire was waiting behind her. I picked up the hidden wireless microphone that I’d had the sound guy strategically place for me and put it on my lapel. Then I reached behind the flowers and picked up my guitar. It had been years since anyone had seen me touch this thing. I could only imagine what was going through their heads. Only my dad knew what was going on because he’d helped me with the chords.
         “What’ re you doing?” Grant whispered. The disbelief in his voice as he figured out the answer all on his own was obvious. I didn’t need to tell him. As soon as Bethy was in her place I stepped in front of the minister and looked directly down the aisle. When Blaire appeared the music would begin. I’d gone over everything with the sound team thoroughly.
         When she stepped forward on her father’s arm her eyes locked with mine and t hen went wide in surprise. She had been supposed to walk down the aisle to “I Won’t Give Up” by Jason Mraz. But I hadn’t wanted another man singing to her. Not today. I wanted her walking to me while I sang the words written just for her when she walked down the aisle to gift me with my world.
     
    “Well, uh, I haven’t been one much for singing... well you know, in front of people... but I figured after all we’ve been through... this would be a good time to say what I’ve always wanted to say. Blaire, I love you girl... to the moon and back.” I watched as she stood frozen looking at me. The entire place faded away and all I could see was Blaire.
     
     
    When you first looked at me
    I forgot to breathe   
    that moment marked my hardened heart
    I vowed never to leave
     
    And the touch of your skin
    healed something deep within
    that left me wanting more of you
    the less I got the more it grew
     
    Oh I couldn’t help from falling, falling for you
     
    So I’m standing here, oh girl you know
    After a ll that we’ve been through we couldn’t let it go
    and as long as I’m alive, in your eyes I’ll stare
    holding you so close I’ll solemnly swear
    that I have fallen too far
    that I have fallen too far, too far for you.
    For you
     
    When I finally found you
    I finally found me
    that day I won’t soon forget
    the reason for it all
     
    I’ll give you a new name
    nothing in life will be the same
    the story is now complete
    our life and love is all we need
     
    ‘Cause I couldn’t help from falling
    falling for you
     
    So I’m standing here oh girl you know
    After a ll we’ve been through we couldn’t let it go
    and as long as I’m alive, in your eyes I’ll stare
    holding you so close I’ll solemnly swear
    that I have fallen too far, that I have fallen too far
    too far for you
     
    My heart is beating
    begging for you
    this night will be
    a dream come true
    so fall, fall, fall into my arms
     
     
     
     
    So I’ m standing here oh girl you know
    After all that we’ve been through we couldn’t let it go
    That I have fallen too far
    That I have fallen too far
    That I have fallen too far
    too far for you, yeah
    For you...
     
    (Fallen Too Far- the wedding song by Rush Finlay is available for purchase on iTunes.