Love Means No Shame - Andrew Grey

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“So that’s why Dad put up with her all those years. On some level he must have felt guilty.”
“Not that he had anything to feel guilty for. He fell in love.
    Len didn’t love Janelle, never would. But yeah, I think he felt guilty because he was happy all those years and she never was. Even though that’s her own fault too.”

    “Poor Janelle.” Geoff shook his head.
    Uncle Dan’s face hardened. “Don’t feel sorry for her. All the pain and unhappiness she’s felt over the years she brought on herself. She could have forgiven and gone on, but she held on and became bitter and miserable.” Then Uncle Dan’s face brightened, and Geoff looked up to see his aunt riding their way, looking every bit the commanding horsewoman.
    “What are you two talking about?” Vicki asked.

    Geoff smiled. “Just gossiping.” Vicki looked unsure, but Geoff smirked. “Anyone who thinks women have a monopoly on gossip has never been to a gay bar. Those queens will rip you to shreds.” His uncle snickered, and Vicki laughed so hard she started snorting.

    Eli, who’d put Kirk in his stall, joined them at the fence, watching the riders.
    “Hey, Tiger,” Geoff greeted. Those big blue eyes shone at him as he put an arm around his waist, pulling him close. Geoff saw Eli look at his uncle, but Dan didn’t react at all, and then he felt Eli relax against him. It didn’t get much better than this: horses, happy riders, and his incredible lover next to him, enjoying it with him, surrounded by people he loved.
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GEOFF lay awake, watching Eli sleep like he’d done off and on all night long. He’d slept some, but not much.
“What’s wrong?” Eli’s sleep-filled voice carried to his ears.
    “I think I napped too much today.” That was only part of the truth, but he was reticent about admitting the rest of it. That Len had promised to take Eli to see his family today scared the shit out of him for so many reasons. What if they didn’t let him come back?

    What if Eli didn’t want to come back? And the question that really seemed to hound his thoughts lately was: what if Eli did come back but wasn’t happy? He could deal with the rest, but he couldn’t deal with Eli being unhappy. He just couldn’t.

    Geoff forced himself to stop these thoughts. This was Eli’s year away, and they had plenty of time to spend together before Eli would need to decide what he was going to do.
    Eli’s sleepy voice cut through his thoughts. “Roll over and I’ll rub your back.”
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    Geoff rolled over, not so Eli could rub his back, but so that he faced him. Then he kissed him, letting the nagging questions melt away. This was what was important, right here, right now. He saw those big eyes open, shining like beacons in the dim room.

    “Love you,” Geoff said before his lips pressed to Eli’s as he moved his body closer, slowly rolling him onto his back, pressing his lover into the mattress, hands roaming, lips tasting. But it never seemed to be enough.

    Eli whimpered into his mouth as he kissed and probed, trying to get a taste of something that seemed just out of reach. He tried to ask Eli what he wanted, but that meant breaking their kiss, and he couldn’t do that… not yet, so he listened. Small whimpers and moans guided him. Those pleasure noises drove him on, building his own desire.

    Finally, he pulled away from Eli’s lips, kissing down that neck, tasting the skin, slightly sweaty, slightly musky, but all Eli. His tongue found a nipple, zeroing in on it like a flesh-colored target. Eli mewled as Geoff nibbled and sucked on one, fingers rubbing the other. Yes… more of those sounds, that “love music” Eli made just for him.
    “Geoff, yes, that’s so good.”
That incredible body writhed beneath him as he lightly bit on the nub of flesh, and Eli’s music changed, became more urgent, more needy.
    Then he backed off, giving Eli a chance to rest as he continued his journey down that luscious body, swirling his tongue around his navel. He continued lower, skimming it over Eli’s hardness and nuzzling the fleshy globes. Lifting his legs, he licked a path to Eli’s most private entrance.
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“Geoff….” Eli let out a small, involuntary cry as Geoff swirled his tongue around the puckered skin.
    “Like that?” Geoff went further, sucking and licking the skin, listening as Eli’s music built, the pitch becoming