Magician's Gambit

this has a chance to work," Aunt Pol told him, slowly tapping a grayish powder from an earthen jar into her bubbling pot, She took the cup of leaves from Ce'Nedra and added that as well, stirring as she poured.
    "I think, my Lord Barak," Mandorallen urged, "that thou hast not fully considered the import of what I have told thee."
    "I heard you. You said you were afraid once. It's nothing to worry about. It happens to everybody now and then."
    "I cannot live with it. I live in constant apprehension, never knowing when it will return to unman me."
    Durnik looked up from the mare. "You're afraid of being afraid?" he asked in a puzzled voice.
    "You cannot know what it was like, good friend," Mandorallen replied.
    "Your stomach tightened up," Durnik told him. "Your mouth was dry, and your heart felt as if someone had his fist clamped around it?"
    Mandorallen blinked.
    "It's happened to me so often that I know exactly how it feels."
    "Thou? Thou art among the bravest men I have ever known."
    Durnik smiled wryly. "I'm an ordinary man, Mandorallen," he said. "Ordinary men live in fear all the time. Didn't you know that? We're afraid of the weather, we're afraid of powerful men, we're afraid of the night and the monsters that lurk in the dark, we're afraid of growing old and of dying. Sometimes we're even afraid of living. Ordinary men are afraid almost every minute of their lives."
    "How can you bear it?"
    "Do we have any choice? Fear's a part of life, Mandorallen, and it's the only life we have. You'll get used to it. After you've put it on every morning like an old tunic, you won't even notice it any more. Sometimes laughing at it helps - a little."
    "Laughing?"
    "It shows the fear that you know it's there, but that you're going to go ahead and do what you have to do anyway." Durnik looked down at his hands, carefully kneading the mare's belly. "Some men curse and swear and bluster," he continued. "That does the same thing, I suppose. Every man has to come up with his own technique for dealing with it. Personally, I prefer laughing. It seems more appropriate somehow."
    Mandorallen's face became gravely thoughtful as Durnik's words slowly sank in. "I will consider this," he said. "It may be, good friend, that I will owe thee more than my life for thy gentle instruction."
    Once more the mare groaned, a deep, tearing sound, and Durnik straightened and began rolling up his sleeves. "The foal's going to have to be turned, Mistress Pol," he said decisively. "And soon, or we'll lose the foal and the mare both."
    "Let me get some of this into her first," she replied, quenching her boiling pot with some cold water. "Hold her head," she told Hettar. Hettar nodded and firmly wrapped his arms around the laboring mare's head. "Garion," Aunt Pol said, as she spooned the liquid between the mare's teeth, "why don't you and Ce'Nedra go over there where Silk and your grandfather are?"
    "Have you ever turned a foal before, Durnik?" Hettar asked anxiously.
    "Not a foal, but calves many times. A horse isn't that much different from a cow, really."
    Barak stood up quickly. His face had a slight greenish cast to it. "I'll go with Garion and the princess," he rumbled. "I don't imagine I'd be much help here."
    "And I will join thee," Mandorallen declared. His face was also visibly pale. "It were best, I think, to leave our friends ample room for their midwifery."
    Aunt Pol looked at the two warriors with a slight smile on her face, but said nothing.
    Garion and the others moved rather quickly away.
    Silk and Mister Wolf were standing beyond the huge stone table, peering into another of the circular openings in the shimmering wall. "I've never seen fruits exactly like those," the little man was saying.
    "I'd be surprised if you had," Wolf replied.
    "They look as fresh as if they'd just been picked." Silk's hand moved almost involuntarily toward the tempting fruit.
    "I wouldn't," Wolf warned.
    "I wonder what they taste like."
    "Wondering won't hurt you. Tasting might."
    "I hate an unsatisfied curiosity."
    "You'll get over it." Wolf turned to Garion and the others. "How's the horse?"
    "Durnik says he's going to have to turn the foal," Barak told him. "We thought it might be better if we all got out of the way."
    Wolf nodded. "Silk!" he admonished sharply, not turning around.
    "Sorry." Silk snatched his hand back.
    "Why don't you just get away from there? You're only going to get yourself in trouble."
    Silk shrugged. "I do that all the time