Maps for Lost Lovers

adulthood, by which time it was too late.
    Yes, the women would nod, among the many things the white people stole from the Subcontinent was that ten-year-old boy’s memory, back in 1919.
    Kaukab, having just finished her prayers, hears Shamas’s key turn in the front door, and the sound takes her back to the day Jugnu had brought the white woman home for dinner, and she remarks to herself that it had been a sign from Allah for the electricity to have failed the moment the white woman had stepped in, the house plunging into darkness.

WOMEN WITH TAILS
    Shamas doesn’t remember his dreams, but on some mornings, like today, he awakens with a gentle deliberateness to his gestures and from that he knows that his father has managed to infiltrate his dreams, just as a lover long gone and not allowed to surface in the waking thoughts comes to place a flower in the mind during sleep, not settling for being forgotten.
    Alone in the blue kitchen, Sunday morning, he reflects on the nature of his father’s drift into Islam, part dream, part nightmare, back in 1919 when he was a Hindu child of ten years and on his way with his sister to witness the wonder of women who had tails.
    In the India of the Raj, the clothes the white women wore were an announcement that they weren’t going native. Although it may not have been convenient and certainly was not comfortable, some British women kept firmly to their corsets well into the twentieth century, even after they had passed out of fashion back in Britain. And in the nineteenth century they had insisted on the rigidly swaying crinolines and ruched bustles even during the muddy and humid monsoon, and during the tandoorhot heat of the months preceding it, making the natives wonder about the nature of the secret concealed under the yards of fabric, a belief spreading across the Subcontinent that white women had tails.
    It was to see them that two Hindu children walked along the lanes of their Punjabi hometown of Gujranwala one spring afternoon in 1919. The brother was the true child but the sister who was older than him by three years had enough of childhood’s exploratory initiative still in her to have agreed to the expedition.
    What kind of a tail does a white woman have? they wondered in excitement. Not dissimilar to a peacock’s, capable of being jerked up to form a giant fan of five-hundred feathers? Or a small twitchy one, resembling a deer’s, needled with white hair? The boy—his name was Deepak but he would have no memory of it or of anything else by the end of the day— wondered if perhaps it was long and packed with powerful muscle for the mem-sahib to lean back on, kangaroo-like, as she lifted her feet into the air to remove her shoes. The girl—Aarti—desperately wanted it to glow in the dark like a firefly—the frilled and ruffled skirts irresistibly bringing to mind a lampshade—and there were two quarrels and three reconciliations between the pair as they made their way to the dak bungalow—the rest-house where the white people lodged when they travelled through Gujranwala. It was surrounded on three sides by the groves of blood-oranges for which the region was famous, and the sahibs were said to climb over the boundary wall in the middle of night for an orange to squeeze into their drinks. So intensely perfumed was the air that in winter a single curl of fog plucked from outside the window and stirred into the glass was enough to impart the flavour of six of the fruit’s segments.
    It was a Tuesday in April. The jackals and wolves in the nearby jungles had howled throughout Sunday night, roused by the smell of warm human blood that the winds brought to Gujranwala from forty miles away, and by dawn on Monday the news had spread to the human population also: hundreds of men, women, and children had been gunned down at the Jallianwallah Garden in Amritsar.
    Enraged by the news, the inhabitants of Gujranwala had stoned a train and set fire to railway bridges, and several buildings along the Grand Trunk Road which passed through the town—the telegraph office, the district court, the post office, and an Indian Christian Church—were reduced to ashes. The white superintendent of police was attacked and escaped with his life only when he ordered his men to open fire on the rioters.
    Today, Tuesday, there was no smoke in the air but it was still unsafe to be outdoors. Lacking clear facts and news, the women who had relatives in Amritsar had kept up their wails