Marked

shouting and got my voice under control. "I just want to figure out how to get through this like everybody else.”
    "Too late, Z," he said.
    "So what now?”
    "I think you'd better talk to your mentor. It's Neferet, isn't it?"
    "Yeah," I said miserably.
    "Hey, cheer up. Neferet's great. She hardly ever takes on fledglings to mentor anymore, so she must really believe in you.”
    "I know, I know. It's just that this makes me feel…" How did I feel about talking to Neferet about what had happened tonight? Embarrassed. Like I was twelve years old again and I had to tell our male gym teacher that I'd started my period and had to go to the locker room to change my shorts. I peeked sideways at Erik. There he sat, gorgeous and attentive and perfect. Hell. I couldn't tell him that. So instead I blurted, "Stupid. It makes me feel stupid." Which wasn't actually a lie, but mostly what it made me feel, besides embarrassed and stupid, was scared. I didn't want this thing that made it impossible for me to fit in.
    "Don't feel stupid. You're actually way ahead of the rest of us."
    "So…," I hesitated, then took a deep breath and barreled on, "did you like the way the blood in the goblet tasted tonight?”
    "Well, here's the deal with that: My first Full Moon Ritual with the Dark Daughters was at the end of my third former year. Except for the 'refrigerator' that night, I was the only third former there― just like you tonight.” He gave a small, humorless laugh. "They only invited me because I'd finaled in the Shakespeare soliloquy contest and was being flown to London for the competition the next day.” He glanced at me and looked a little embarrassed. "No one from this House of Night had ever made it to London. It was a big deal." He shook his head self-mockingly. "Actually, I thought I was a big deal. So the Dark Daughters invited me to join them, and I did. I knew about the blood. I was given the opportunity to turn it down. I didn't.”
    "But did you like it?”
    This time his laugh was real. "I gagged and puked my guts up. It was the most disgusting thing I'd ever tasted.”
    I groaned. My head dropped forward and I put my face in my hands. "You're not helping me.”
    "Because you thought it was good?”
    "Better than good," I said, my face still in my hands. "You say it was the most disgusting thing you'd ever tasted? I thought it was the most delicious. Well, the most delicious until I―" I stopped, realizing what I had been about to say.
    "Until you tasted fresh blood?" he asked gently.
    I nodded my head, afraid to speak.
    He tugged at my hands, making me unbury my face. Then he put his finger under my chin and forced me to look straight at him. "Don't be embarrassed or ashamed. It's normal.”
    "Loving the taste of blood is not normal. Not for me.”
    "Yes, it is. All vampyres have to deal with their lust for blood," he said.
    "I am not a vampyre!”
    "Maybe you're not―yet. But you're also definitely not the average fledgling, and there's nothing wrong with that. You're special, Zoey, and special can be amazing.”
    Slowly, he took his finger from my chin and, as he had earlier that night, he traced the shape of a pentagram softly over my darkened Mark. I liked the way his finger felt against my skin― warm and a little rough. I also liked that being near him didn't set off all the weird reactions I'd had to being close to Heath. I mean, I couldn't hear Erik's blood beating or see the pulse in his neck jumping. Not that I'd mind if he kissed me.…
    Hell! Was I becoming a vampyre slut? What was next? Would no male of any species (which might even include Damien) be safe around me? Maybe I should avoid all guys until I figured out what was going on with me and knew I could control myself.
    Then I remembered that I had been trying to avoid everyone, which is why I was out here in the first place.
    "What are you doing out here, Erik?”
    "I followed you," he said simply.
    “ Why? ”
    "I figured I knew what Aphrodite had pulled in there and I thought you might need a friend. You're rooming with Stevie Rae, right?”
    I nodded.
    "Yeah, I thought about finding her and sending her out here to you, but I didn't know if you'd want her to know about…" He paused and made a vague gesture back in the direction of the rec hall.
    "No! I―I don't want her to know." I stumbled over the words, I said them so fast.
    "That's what I thought. So, that's why you're stuck with me." He smiled and then looked kinda uncomfortable. "I