Nobody's Fool

population of the Sans Souci into the small cellar of what had once been his home.
    â€œI wisht you hadn’t told me those were rats,” Rub said, listening to the sounds like rustling paper below.
    Anyone overhearing Rub’s conversation during the long afternoon would have taken him for a malcontent, but Sully knew better. Despite the wish parade, Rub was the most content he’d been in two weeks, since Peter’s return, to be precise. After lunch, Ralph had unexpectedly showed up and spoken to Peter in private, after which Peter had left with his stepfather without explanation. Something was clearly going on, but it apparently wasn’t anything either man felt compelled to share with Sully, who suspected it was some sort of crisis with Vera. All afternoon, he hadn’t been able to get the image of his ex-wife, caught shoplifting in Jocko’s Rexall, out of his mind. He wondered if Peter knew. If Ralph knew.
    Anyway, Rub was not sorry to see Peter depart, which meant he had Sully right where he wanted him. With the two sawhorses set up in the middle of the living room and surrounded by a mine field of dangerous holes in the flooring, they faced each other throughout the long afternoon, wrenching reluctant nails from boards so the hardwood could be reused. When they finished with the ones they’d piled along the west wall, Rub fetched the ones they’d piled out on the porch, hopping nimbly from stud to stud, his arms weighted down with lumber, while Sully remained on the more stable island of plywood, swearing at the soft nails.
    All afternoon they’d faced each other in that charmed circle, close enough to touch, though Rub wouldn’t have done that. He had a deep and abiding adolescent fear of being thought “queer,” a fear that was always coming into conflict with his equally powerful need to keep his best friend in the whole world as close by as possible, so he could share with Sully his deepest wishes and needs, as they occurred to him, every single one. Rub’s wishes didn’t travel well. They came out best when he didn’t have to raise his voice, when he was in a ditch, for instance, and Sully was there in the same ditch a few feet away and ready to receive them. He didn’t like to expel wishes forcefully but rather to release them gently, allow them to locate Sully of their own impetus, on their own struggling wings. Like recently hatched birds, Rub’s wishes were too new to the world and too clumsy to sustain extended flight. They liked the nest.
    So far this afternoon Rub had wished that Peter would quit calling him Sancho, because he hated that name; that they could turn on the heat here in the house, which was almost as cold indoors as out, so theywouldn’t have to wear gloves, which made the delicate task of pounding out the nails that much more difficult; that his wife, Bootsie, would quit stealing so much from the Woolworth’s where she worked before she got caught and they both got sent to jail; that the Sans Souci, one wing of which was visible through the northeast window beyond the grove of naked trees, would hire him and Sully to be handymen at about twenty dollars an hour when the spa opened in the summer. That he could be invisible for a day, so he could sneak in and watch ole Toby Roebuck in the shower.
    Sully only half listened. As always, he was amazed by the modesty of Rub’s fantasies. How like him it was to bestow upon himself the gift of invisibility and then imagine it would be his for only a single day. Often there was a curious wisdom about Rub’s imaginings, as if he’d learned about life that nothing ever comes to you clean but instead with caveats and provisos that could render the gifts worthless or leave you hungry for more. It was as if somewhere in the back of Rub’s mind he knew that he was better off without whatever it was he wished for. Which was certainly true in the case of invisibility. In most social situations, Rub was closer to invisibility than he knew, and to disappear completely would not be in his best interest.
    Though he only half listened, Sully was grateful for Rub’s litany, if only to keep the Bowdon Street ghosts at arm’s length. His father, full to the throat with cheap beer and moral indignation, the stench of both on his breath, seemed as if he might reel noisily through the front door once again, its frame barely wide enough to contain him in this