Purple Hibiscus

bedroom, most of my clothes were in the bag already. I stood staring at the window with the missing louvers and the torn mosquito netting, wondering what it would be like if I tore through the small hole and leaped out.
    “Nne.
” Aunty Ifeoma came in silently and ran a hand over my cornrows. She handed me my schedule, still folded in crisp quarters.
    “Tell Father Amadi that I have left, that we have left, say good-bye for us,” I said, turning. She had wiped the tears from her face, and she looked the same again, fearless.
    “I will,” she said.
    She held my hand in hers as we walked to the front door. Outside, the harmatten wind tore across the front yard, ruffling the plants in the circular garden, bending the will and branches of trees, coating the parked cars with more dust. Obiora carried our bags to the Mercedes, where Kevin waited with the boot open. Chima started to cry; I knew he did not want Jaja to leave.
    “Chima,
o zugo
. You will see Jaja again soon. They will comeagain,” Aunty Ifeoma said, holding him close. Papa did not say yes to back up what Aunty Ifeoma had said. Instead, to make Chima feel better he said,
“O zugo
, it’s enough,” hugged Chima, and stuffed a small wad of naira notes into Aunty Ifeoma’s hand to buy Chima a present, which made Chima smile. Amaka blinked rapidly as she said good-bye, and I was not sure if it was from the gritty wind or to keep more tears back. The dust coating her eyelashes looked stylish, like cocoa-colored mascara. She pressed something wrapped in black cellophane into my hands, then turned and hurried back into the flat. I could see through the wrapping: it was the unfinished painting of Papa-Nnukwu. I hid it in my bag, quickly, and climbed into the car.
    MAMA WAS AT THE DOOR when we drove into our compound. Her face was swollen and the area around her right eye was the black-purple shade of an overripe avocado. She was smiling. “
Umu m
, welcome. Welcome.” She hugged us at the same time, burying her head in Jaja’s neck and then in mine. “It seems so long, so much longer than ten days.”
    “Ifeoma was busy tending to a heathen,” Papa said, pouring a glass of water from a bottle Sisi placed on the table. “She did not even take them to Aokpe on pilgrimage.” “Papa-Nnukwu is dead,” Jaja said. Mama’s hand flew to her chest.
“Chi m
! When?” “This morning,” Jaja said. “He died in his sleep.” Mama wrapped her hands around herself. “
Ewuu
, so he has gone to rest,
ewuu
.”
    “He has gone to face judgment,” Papa said, putting his glass of water down. “Ifeoma did not have the sense to call a priestbefore he died. He might have converted before he died.”
    “Maybe he didn’t want to convert,” Jaja said.
    “May he rest in peace,” Mama said quickly.
    Papa looked at Jaja. “What did you say? Is that what you have learned from living in the same house as a heathen?”
    “No,” Jaja said.
    Papa stared at Jaja, then at me, shaking his head slowly as if we had somehow changed color. “Go and bathe and come down for dinner,” he said.
    As we went upstairs, Jaja walked in front of me and I tried to place my feet on the exact spots where he placed his. Papa’s prayer before dinner was longer than usual: he asked God to cleanse his children, to remove whatever spirit it was that made them lie to him about being in the same house as a heathen. “It is the sin of omission, Lord,” he said, as though God did not know. I said my “amen” loudly. Dinner was beans and rice with chunks of chicken. As I ate, I thought how each chunk of chicken on my plate would be cut into three pieces in Aunty Ifeoma’s house.
    “Papa, may I have the key to my room, please?” Jaja asked, setting his fork down. We were halfway through dinner. I took a deep breath and held it. Papa had always kept the keys to our rooms.
    “What?” Papa asked.
    “The key to my room. I would like to have it.
Makana
, because I would like some privacy.”
    Papa’s pupils seemed to dart around in the whites of his eyes. “What? What do you want privacy for? To commit a sin against your own body? Is that what you want to do, masturbate?”
    “No,” Jaja said. He moved his hand and knocked his glass ofwater over.
    “See what has happened to my children?” Papa asked the ceiling. “See how being with a heathen has changed them, has taught them evil?”
    We finished dinner in silence. Afterward, Jaja followed Papa upstairs. I sat with Mama in the