Red Lily

her and the baby checked out. He’d start reading up on baby stuff—womb stuff—so that he understood the process, got sharper images in his head of what was going on in there.
    They’d get married as soon as possible, but not so fast it had to be something rushed and cold and practical. He didn’t want that for Hayley, or when he thought it through, for himself.
    He wanted to get married at Harper House. In the gardens he helped tend, in the shadow of the house where he’d grown up. He wanted to make his promises to Hayley there, and he realized, to make them to Lily there, andto this new child who was now the size of a grain of rice.
    This was what he wanted, what he had, somehow, been moving toward all of his life. It was something he’d never thought about before, and knew now as surely as he knew his own name.
    Hayley and Lily would move into the carriage house. He’d speak to his mother about adding on to it, giving it more space while staying true to the heart and the traditional style.
    More space for their children, he thought, so that they, too, could grow up in Harper House, with its gardens, its woods, its history that would be theirs as it was his.
    He could see all of that, he could know all of that. But what he couldn’t see was the child. The child he’d helped create.
    A grain of rice? How could something so small be so huge? And already be so loved?
    But now there was a step that had to be taken before the others.
    He found his mother in the garden, adding a few asters and mums to one of her beds.
    She wore thin cotton gloves, soiled with seasons of work. Cropped cotton pants, the color of bluebonnets that were already smudged with the greens and browns of the task she performed. Her feet were bare, and he could see the backless slides she’d stepped out of before she’d knelt at the border.
    When he’d been a child, he’d believed her to be invincible, almost supernatural. She knew everything whether you wanted her to or not. She’d had the answers when he’d needed them, had given him hugs—and the occasional licks. Some of which he’d still like to dispute.
    Most of all she’d been there, unfailingly been there. In the best times, in the worst, and all the times between.

    Now, it would be his turn.
    She tilted her head up as he approached, absently brushed the back of her hand over her brow. It struck him how beautiful she was, her hat tipped over her eyes, her face serene.
    “Had a good day,” she said. “Thought I’d extend it and fluff up this bed. Gonna rain tonight.”
    “Yeah.” Automatically he glanced up at the sky. “Hoping for a nice soaker.”
    “Your mouth, God’s ear.” She squinted against the sun as she studied him. “My, don’t you have your serious face on. You gonna sit down here so I don’t get a crick in my neck?”
    He crouched. “I need to talk to you.”
    “You usually do when you have your serious face on.”
    “Hayley’s pregnant.”
    “Well.” She set down her trowel, very carefully. “Well, well, well.”
    “She just found out today. She thinks about six weeks. She got the symptoms—I guess you call them symptoms—mixed up with everything else that’s going on.”
    “I can see how that might happen. Is she all right?”
    “A little upset, a little scared, I guess.”
    She reached up, took off his sunglasses, looked into his eyes. “How about you?”
    “I’ve been taking it in. I love her, Mama.”
    “I know you do. Are you happy, Harper?”
    “I’m a lot of things. Happy’s one of them. I know this isn’t how you’d hoped I would do things.”
    “Harper, it doesn’t matter what I hoped or want.” Carefully she selected a blue aster, set it in the hole she’d already dug. Her hands worked, tucking it in, patting the earth as she spoke. “What matters is what you and Hayley want. What matters is that little girl, and the child you’ve started.”
    “I want Lily. I want to marry Hayley and make Lilymine, legally. I want this baby. And I know it might seem like I’ve just dropped a pill into a glass of water. Pow, instant family, but . . . Don’t cry. Please don’t cry.”
    “I’m entitled to cry when my firstborn tells me he’s making me a grandmother. I’m damn well entitled to a few tears. Where the hell is my bandanna?”
    He pulled it out of her back pocket, handed it to her.
    “I’ve got to sit all the way down a minute.” She plopped down on her butt, wiped her eyes, blew her nose. “You know