Seasons of War

when they had first been lovers and now.
    ‘How badly is it going?’ she asked.
    ‘Not well. We have a start, but Cehmai’s notes are only beginnings. And they were done by a student. I’m sure they all seemed terribly deep and insightful when he was still fresh from the school. But there’s less there than I’d hoped. And . . .’
    ‘And?’
    Maati sighed. The towers were visible now. The blades of grass stood out one from another.
    ‘He’s not a great inventor,’ Maati said. ‘He never was. It’s part of why he was chosen to take over an andat that had already been captured instead of binding something new. And I’m no better.’
    ‘You were chosen for the same thing.’
    ‘Cehmai’s clever. I’m clever too, if it comes to that, but we’re the second pressing. There’s no one we can talk with who’s seen a binding through from first principles to a completion. We need someone whose mind’s sharper than ours.’
    There were birds wheeling about the towers - tiny specks of black and gray and white wheeling though the air as if a single mind drove them. Maati pretended he could hear their calls.
    ‘Perhaps you could train someone. There’s a whole city to choose from.’
    ‘There isn’t time,’ Maati said. He wanted to say that even if there were, he wouldn’t. The andat were too powerful, too dangerous to be given to anyone whose heart wasn’t strong or whose conscience couldn’t be trusted. That was the lesson, after all, that had driven his own life and Cehmai’s and the Dai-kvo himself. It was what elevated each of the poets from boy children cast out by their parents to the most honored men in the world. And yet, if there were someone bright enough to hand the power to, he suspected he would. If it brought the army back from the field and put the world back the way it had been, the risk would be worth it.
    ‘Maybe one of the other poets will come,’ Liat said, but her voice had gone thin and weary.
    ‘You don’t have hope for the Dai-kvo?’
    Liat smiled.
    ‘Hope? Yes, I have hope. Just not faith. The Galts know what’s in play. If we don’t recapture the andat, the cities will all fall. If we do, we’ll destroy Galt and everyone in her. They’ll be as ruthless as we will.’
    ‘And Otah-kvo? Nayiit?’
    Liat’s gaze met his, and he nodded. The knot in her chest, he was certain, was much like his own.
    ‘They’ll be fine,’ Liat said, her tone asking for her own belief in the words as much as his. ‘It’s always the footmen who die in battles, isn’t it? The generals all live. And he’ll keep Nayiit safe. He said he would.’
    ‘They might not even see battle. If they arrive before the Galts and come back quickly enough, we might not lose a single man.’
    ‘And the moon may come down and get itself trapped in a teabowl,’ Liat said. ‘But it would be nice, wouldn’t it? For us, I mean. Not so much for the Galts.’
    ‘You care what happens to them?’
    ‘Is that wrong?’ Liat asked.
    ‘You’re the one who came to Otah-kvo asking that they all be killed.’
    ‘I suppose I did, didn’t I? I don’t know what’s changed. Something to do with having my boy out there, I suppose. Slaughtering a nation isn’t so much to think about. It’s when I start feeling that it all goes confused. I wonder why we do it. I wonder why they do. Do you think if we gave them our gold and our silver and swore we would never bind a fresh andat . . . do you think they’d let our children live?’
    It took a few breaths to realize that Liat was actually waiting for his answer, and several more before he knew what he believed.
    ‘No,’ Maati said. ‘I don’t think they would.’
    ‘Neither do I. But it would be good, wouldn’t it? A world where it wasn’t a choice of our children or theirs.’
    ‘It would be better than this one.’
    As if by common consent, they changed the subject, talking of food and the change of seasons, Eiah’s new half-apprenticeship with the physicians and the small doings of the women of the utkhaiem now that their men had gone. It was only reluctantly that Maati rose. The sun was two and a half hands past where it had been when he woke, the shadows growing oblong. They walked back to the library, hand in hand at first, and then only walking beside each other. Maati felt his heart growing heavier as they came down the familiar paths, paving stones turning to sand turning to crushed white gravel bright as snow.
    ‘You could come in,’ Maati