Seasons of War

might startle her into flight. Liat swallowed to loosen the knot in her throat and smiled.
    ‘I would have written to warn you I was coming,’ she said, ‘but by the time I knew I was, I’d have raced the letter. I’m . . . I’m sorry if . . .’
    But he touched her arm, his fingers on the cloth just above her elbow. His eyes were wide and amazed. As if it were natural, as if it had been a week or a day and not a third of their lives, Liat put her arms around him and felt him enclose her. She had told herself that she would hold back, be careful. She was the head of House Kyaan, a woman of business and politics. She knew how to be hardhearted and cool. There was no reason to think that she would be safe here in the farthest city from her home and facing again the two lovers of her childhood. The years had worked changes on them all, and she had parted with neither of them on good terms.
    And yet the tears in her eyes were simple and sincere and as much joy as sorrow, and the touch of Maati’s body against her own - strange and familiar both - wasn’t awkward or unwelcome. She kissed his cheek and drew back enough to see his still wonder-filled face.
    ‘Well,’ she said at last. ‘It’s been a while. It’s good to see you again, Maati-kya. I wasn’t sure it would be, but it is.’
    ‘I thought I’d never see you again,’ he said. ‘I thought, after all this time . . . My letters . . .’
    ‘I got them, yes. And it’s not as if court gossip didn’t tell everyone in the world where you were. The last succession of Machi was the favorite scandal of the season. I even saw an epic made from it. The boy who took your part didn’t look a thing like you,’ she said, and then, in a lower voice, ‘I meant to write back to you, even if it was only to tell you that I’d heard. That I knew. But somehow I never managed. I regret that. I’ve always regretted that. It only seemed so . . . complex.’
    ‘I thought perhaps . . . I don’t know. I don’t know what I thought.’
    She stood silently in his arms the space of another breath, part of her wishing that this moment might suffice; that the relief she felt at Maati’s simple, unconsidered acceptance might stand in for all that she had still to do. He sensed the change in her thoughts and stepped back, his hands moving restlessly. She smoothed her hair, suddenly aware of the streaks of gray at her temple.
    ‘Can I get something for you?’ Maati said. ‘It’s simple enough to call a servant in from the palaces. Or I have some distilled wine here.’
    ‘Wine will do,’ she said, and sat.
    He went to a low cabinet beside the fire grate, sliding the wooden panel back and taking out two small porcelain bowls and a stoppered bottle as he spoke.
    ‘I’ve had company recently. He’s only just left. I don’t usually live in this disorder.’
    ‘I’m not sure I believe that,’ she said, wryly. Maati chuckled and shrugged.
    ‘Oh, I don’t clean it myself. It would be a hundred times worse than this. Otah-kvo’s been very kind in loaning me servants. He has more than he has places for.’
    The name was like a cold breath, but Liat only smiled and accepted the bowl that Maati held out to her. She sipped the wine - strong, peppery, and warm in her throat - to give herself a moment. She wasn’t ready yet for the pleasure to end.
    ‘The world’s changed on us,’ she said. It was a platitude, but Maati seemed to take some deeper meaning from it.
    ‘It has,’ he said. ‘And it’ll keep on changing, I think. When I was a boy, I never imagined myself here, and I can’t say for certain what I’ll be doing when next summer comes. The new Dai-kvo . . .’
    He shook his head slowly and sipped his wine for what Liat guessed was much the same reason she had. The silence between them grew. Maati cleared his throat.
    ‘How is Nayiit?’ he asked, careful, Liat noticed, to use the boy’s name. Not our son , but Nayiit.
    She told him about the work of House Kyaan, and Nayiit’s role as an overseer. The stories of how he had made the transition from the child of the head of the house to an overseer in his own right. His courtship, his marriage, the child. Maati closed the door, lit a fire in the grate, and listened.
    It was odd that of all the subjects she had to bring to the table, Nayiit should be the easiest. And Maati listened to it all, laughing or rapt, delighted and also sorrowful, longing to have been part of something that was already gone. Her