Small Gods

longing poured down on him with the weight of hot lead. The only advantage, the only advantage, was that the small gods had no concept of working together. That was a luxury that came with evolution.
    …Want…
    Mine!
    The chittering became a whine.
    But you can have the other one, said Om…. Dull, hard, enclosed, shut-in…
    I know, said Om. But this one, mine!
    The psychic shout echoed around the desert. The small gods fled.
    Except for one.
    Om was aware that it had not been swarming with the others, but had been hovering gently over a piece of sun-bleached bone. It had said nothing.
    He turned his attention on it.
    You. Mine!
    I know, said the small god. It knew speech, real god speech, although it talked as though every word had been winched from the pit of memory.
    Who are you? said Om.
    The small god stirred.
    There was a city once, said the small god. Not just a city. An empire of cities. I, I, I remember there were canals, and gardens. There was a lake. They had floating gardens on the lake, I recall. I, I. And there were temples. Such temples as you may dream of. Great pyramid temples that reached to the sky. Thousands were sacrificed. To the greater glory.
    Om felt sick. This wasn’t just a small god. This was a small god who hadn’t always been small…
    Who were you?
    And there were temples. I, I, me. Such temples as you may dream of. Great pyramid temples that reached to the sky. The glory of. Thousands were sacrificed. Me. To the greater glory.
    And there were temples. Me, me, me. Greater glory. Such glory temples as you may dream of. Great pyramid dream temples that reached to the sky. Me, me. Sacrificed. Dream. Thousands were sacrificed. To me the greater sky glory.
    You were their God? Om managed.
    Thousands were sacrificed. To the greater glory.
    Can you hear me?
    Thousands sacrificed greater glory. Me, me, me.
    What was your name? shouted Om.
    Name?
    A hot wind blew over the desert, shifting a few grains of sand. The echo of a lost god blew away, tumbling over and over, until it vanished among the rocks.
    Who were you?
    There was no answer.
    That’s what happens, Om thought. Being a small god was bad, except at the time you hardly knew that it was bad because you only barely knew anything at all, but all the time there was something which was just possibly the germ of hope, the knowledge and belief that one day you might be more than you were now.
    But how much worse to have been a god, and to now be no more than a smoky bundle of memories, blown back and forth across the sand made from the crumbled stones of your temples…
    Om turned around and, on stumpy legs, walked purposefully back into the cave until he came to Brutha’s head, which he butted.
    “Wst?”
    “Just checking you’re still alive.”
    “Fgfl.”
    “Right.”
    Om staggered back to his guard position at the mouth of the cave.
    There were said to be oases in the desert, but they were never in the same place twice. The desert wasn’t mappable. It ate map-makers.
    So did the lions. Om could remember them. Scrawny things, not like the lions of the Howondaland veldt. More wolf than lion, more hyena than either. Not brave, but with a kind of vicious, rangy cowardice that was much more dangerous…
    Lions.
    Oh, dear…
    He had to find lions.
    Lions drank.

    Brutha awoke as the afternoon light dragged across the desert. His mouth tasted of snake.
    Om was butting him on the foot.
    “Come on, come on, you’re missing the best of the day.”
    “Is there any water?” Brutha murmured thickly.
    “There will be. Only five miles off. Amazing luck.”
    Brutha pulled himself up. Every muscle ached.
    “How do you know?”
    “I can sense it. I am a god, you know.”
    “You said you could only sense minds.”
    Om cursed. Brutha didn’t forget things.
    “It’s more complicated than that,” lied Om. “Trust me. Come on, while there’s some twilight. And don’t forget Mister Vorbis.”
    Vorbis was curled up. He looked at Brutha with unfocused eyes, stood up like a man still asleep when Brutha helped him.
    “I think he might have been poisoned,” said Brutha. “There’s sea creatures with stings. And poisonous corals. He keeps moving his lips, but I can’t make out what he’s trying to say.”
    “Bring him along,” said Om. “Bring him along. Oh, yes.”
    “You wanted me to abandon him last night,” said Brutha.
    “Did I?” said Om, his very shell radiating innocence. “Well, maybe I’ve been to Ethics. Had a