The Apprentice: A Rizzoli & Isles Novel

although they treat me with the same courtesy they offer all the other patients, I notice they do not really look me in the eye, that they hesitate before touching my flesh, as though they are about to test a hot iron. I catch glimpses of the aides in the hallway, glancing at me as they whisper to each other. They chatter with the other patients, asking them about their friends and families, but no such questions are ever put to me. Oh, they ask me how I am feeling and whether I slept well, but that is the extent of our conversation.
    Yet I know they are curious. Everyone is curious, everyone wants a peek at the Surgeon, but they are afraid to come too close, as though I might suddenly spring up and attack them. So they cast quick glances at me through the doorway, but do not come in unless duty calls them. The ABC girls tend to my skin, my bladder, and my bowels, and then they flee, leaving the monster alone in his den, chained to the bed by his own ruined body.
    It’s no wonder I look forward so eagerly to Dr. O’Donnell’s visits.
    She has been coming once a week. She brings her cassette recorder and her legal notepad and a purse full of blue rollerball pens with which to take notes. And she brings her curiosity, wearing it fearlessly and unashamedly, like a red cloak. Her curiosity is purely professional, or so she believes. She moves her chair close to my bed and sets up the microphone on the tray table so it will catch every word. Then she leans forward, her neck arching toward me as though offering me her throat. It is a lovely throat. She is a natural blonde, and quite pale, and her veins course in delicate blue lines beneath the whitewash of skin. She looks at me, unafraid, and asks her questions.
    “Do you miss John Stark?”
    “You know I do. I’ve lost a brother.”
    “A brother? But you don’t even know his real name.”
    “And the police, they keep asking me about it. I can’t help them, because he never told me.”
    “Yet you corresponded with him all that time from prison.”
    “Names were unimportant to us.”
    “You knew each other well enough to kill together.”
    “Only the one time, on Beacon Hill. It’s like making love, I think. The first time, you’re still learning to trust each other.”
    “So killing together was a way of getting to know him?”
    “Is there a better way?”
    She raises an eyebrow, as though she’s not quite sure if I’m serious. I am.
    “You refer to him as a brother,” she says. “What do you mean by that?”
    “We had a bond, the two of us. A sacred bond. It’s so hard to find people who completely understand me.”
    “I can imagine.”
    I’m alert to the merest hint of sarcasm, but I don’t hear it in her voice, or see it in her eyes.
    “I know there must be others like us out there,” I say. “The challenge is to find them. To connect. We all want to be with our own kind.”
    “You talk as though you’re a separate species.”
    “Homo sapiens reptilis,”
I quip.
    “Excuse me?”
    “I’ve read that there’s a part of our brain that dates back to our reptilian origins. It controls our most primitive functions. Fight and flight. Mating. Aggression.”
    “Oh. You mean the Archipallium.”
    “Yes. The brain we had before we became human and civilized. It holds no emotions, no conscience. No morals. What you see when you look in the eyes of a cobra. The same part of our brain that responds directly to olfactory stimulation. It’s why reptiles have such a keen sense of smell.”
    “That’s true. Neurologically speaking, our olfactory system is closely related to the Archipallium.”
    “Did you know I’ve always had an extraordinary sense of smell?”
    For a moment she simply gazes at me. Again, she does not know if I am serious or I am spinning this theory for her because she is a neuropsychiatrist and I know she will appreciate it.
    Her next question reveals she has decided to take me seriously: “Did John Stark also have an extraordinary sense of smell?”
    “I don’t know.” My stare is intent. “Now that he’s dead, we’ll never know.”
    She studies me like a cat about to pounce. “You look angry, Warren.”
    “Don’t I have reason to be?” My gaze drops to my useless body, lying inert on the sheepksin pad. I don’t even think of it as my body any longer. Why should I? I can’t feel it. It is just a lump of alien flesh.
    “You’re angry at the policewoman,” she says.
    Such an obvious statement does not even