The Girl You Left Behind
speaks, her face set in hollow-eyed
watchfulness, her hands permanently attached to my skirts as if she is fully
expecting someone to come and snatch me away too. I’m afraid I have barely
had time to comfort her. There are fewer Germans coming in the evenings now, but
enough that I have to work every night until midnight just to feed and clear up
after them.
Aurélien disappeared. He
left shortly after you did. I hear from Madame Louvier that he is still in St
Péronne, staying with Jacques Arriège above the
tabac
, but in
truth I have no appetiteto see him. He is no better than
Kommandant Hencken in his betrayal of you. For all your faith in people’s
goodness, I cannot believe that if Herr Kommandant genuinely wished you well he
would have torn you from our embrace in such a manner, so that the whole town
might become aware of your alleged sins. I cannot see any evidence of humanity
in either of their actions. I simply cannot.
I pray for you, Sophie. I see your face when I wake in the morning, and when I
turn over some part of me startles that you are not there on the other pillow,
your hair tied in a fat plait, making me laugh and conjuring food from your
imagination. I turn to call for you at the bar and there is just a silence where
you should be. Mimi climbs up to your bedroom and peers in as if she, too,
expects to find you, seated before your bureau, writing or gazing into the
middle distance, your head full of dreams. Do you remember when we used to stand
at that window and imagine what lay beyond it? When we dreamed of fairies and
princesses and those noblemen who might come to rescue us? I wonder what our
childish selves would have made of this place now, with its pocked roads, its
men like wraiths in rags, and its starving children.
The town has been so quiet since you left. It is as if its very spirit left with
you. Madame Louvier comes in, perverse to the last, and insists that your name
must still be heard. She harangues anyone who will listen. Herr Kommandant is
not among the handful of Germans who arrive for their meal in the evening. I
truly believe he cannot meet my gaze. Or perhaps he knows I should like to run
him through with my good paring knife and has decided to stay away.
Little snippets of information still find their way through: a scrap of paper
under my door told of another outbreak of influenza near Lille, a convoy of
Allied soldiers captured nearDouai, horses killed for meat
on the Belgian border. No word from Jean-Michel. No word from you.
Some days I feel as if I am buried in a mine and can hear only the echoes of
voices at some distance. All those I love, aside from the children, have been
taken away from me and I no longer know whether any of you are alive or dead.
Sometimes my fear for you grows so great that I find myself paralysed, and I
will be in the middle of stirring some soup or laying a table and I have to
force myself to breathe, to tell myself I must be strong for the children. Most
of all, I must have faith. What would Sophie do? I ask myself firmly, and the
answer is always clear.
Please, beloved sister, take care. Do not inflame the Germans further, even if
they are your captors. Do not take risks, no matter how great the impulse. All
that matters is that you return to us safely; you and Jean-Michel and your
beloved Édouard. I tell myself that this letter will reach you. I tell
myself that perhaps, just perhaps, the two of you are together, and not in the
way that I fear most. I tell myself God must be just, however He chooses to toy
with our futures this dark day.
Stay safe, Sophie.
Your loving sister
Hélène
21
Paul puts down the letter, obtained from a
cache of correspondence stockpiled by resistance operatives during the First World War.
It is the only piece of evidence he has found of Sophie Lefèvre’s family and
it, like the others, appears not to have reached her.
The Girl You Left Behind
is now
Paul’s priority case. He ploughs through his usual sources: museums, archivists,
auction houses, experts in international art cases. Off the record, he speaks to less
benign sources: old acquaintances at Scotland Yard, contacts from the world of art
crime, a Romanian known for recording almost mathematically the underground movement of
a whole swathe of stolen European art.
He discovers these facts: that Édouard
Lefèvre had, until recently,
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