The Last Letter from Your Lover

“Bigomy”! You want to take a lesson from O’Hare here. He spends so much time in Africa that we can’t tell whether the bloody spellings are right or wrong anyway.’ He threw the sheet of paper at the young man, who scrabbled for it and left the office quickly.
    ‘So,’ Don tutted, ‘where’s my bloody feature, then? “Riviera Secrets of the Rich and Famous”?’
    ‘It’s coming,’ Anthony lied.
    ‘You’d better make it quick. I’ve got half a page put by for it on Saturday. Did you have a good time?’
    ‘It was fine.’
    Don tilted his head. ‘Yeah. Looks like it. So. Anyway. I’ve got good news.’
    The windows of his office were so covered with nicotine that anyone who brushed innocently against them would find their shirtsleeves stained yellow. Anthony stared out through the golden fug at the newsroom. For two days now he had walked around with the letter in his pocket, trying to work out how he could get it to her. He kept seeing her face, the flush of horror as she realised what she thought had been her mistake.
    ‘Tony?’
    ‘Yes.’
    ‘I’ve got good news for you.’
    ‘Right. Yes.’
    ‘I’ve been talking to the Foreign Desk and they want someone to go to Baghdad. Take a look at this man from the Polish embassy who’s claiming to be some sort of super-spy. Hard news, son. Right up your street. It’ll get you out of the office for a week or two.’
    ‘I can’t go now.’
    ‘You need a day or two?’
    ‘I’ve got some personal business to sort out.’
    ‘Shall I tell the Algerians to hold off on the ceasefire too? Just in case it gets in the way of your domestic arrangements? Are you kidding me, O’Hare?’
    ‘Then send someone else. I’m sorry, Don.’
    Don’s metronomic clicking of his ballpoint pen became increasingly uneven. ‘I don’t understand. You spend all your time hanging around the office bitching that you need to be off doing “real” news so I give you a story that Peterson would gnaw his right arm off for, and all of a sudden you want to be deskbound.’
    ‘Like I said, I’m sorry.’
    Don’s mouth fell open. He closed it, stood up heavily, made his way across the office and closed the door. Then he came back to his seat. ‘Tony, this is a good story. You should be all over it like a bad suit. More than that, you need this story. You need to show them they can rely on you.’ He peered at him. ‘You lost your appetite? You telling me you want to stick with the soft stuff?’
    ‘No. I’m just . . . Just give me a day or two.’
    Don sat back, lit a cigarette and inhaled noisily. ‘Good God,’ he said. ‘It’s a woman.’
    Anthony said nothing.
    ‘It is. You met a woman. What’s the matter? You can’t go anywhere until you’ve cracked her?’
    ‘She’s married.’
    ‘Since when did that stop you?’
    ‘She’s . . . It’s the wife. Stirling’s wife.’
    ‘And?’
    ‘And she’s too good.’
    ‘For him? Don’t tell me.’
    ‘For me. I don’t know what to do.’
    Don raised his eyes to the ceiling.
    ‘An attack of conscience, eh? I wondered why you looked so bloody awful.’ He shook his head, spoke as if someone else was in the little room. ‘I don’t believe it. O’Hare, of all people.’ He placed his pen on his desk with a chubby hand. ‘Okay. Here’s what you’re going to do. Go and see her, do what you have to do, get it out of your system. Then be on the flight that leaves tomorrow lunchtime. I’ll tell the desk you left this evening. How does that sound? And write me some bloody decent stories.’
    ‘“Get it out of your system”? You old romantic.’
    ‘You got a prettier phrase?’
    Anthony felt the letter in his pocket. ‘I owe you one,’ he said.
    ‘You owe me eighty-three,’ Don grumbled.
    It had not been hard to find Stirling’s address. He had scanned the office copy of Who’s Who , and there it was, at the bottom of his entry, underneath ‘m: Jennifer Louisa Verrinder, b. 1934’. That evening, after work, he had driven to Fitzrovia, and parked in the square a few doors up from the white stuccoed house.
    A Nash-style Regency villa, with pillars that flanked the front porch, it had the air of an expensive consultant’s office in Harley Street. He sat in the car and wondered what she was doing behind those net curtains. He pictured her sitting with a magazine, perhaps gazing blankly across the room and thinking of a lost moment in a hotel room in France. At around half past six a