The Long Walk

but there had been none. He just hadn’t been good enough to make the cut then, and he wasn’t going to be good enough now. Good enough to walk most of them down, but not all. His feet and legs had gone beyond numb and angry rebellion, and now mutiny was just a step away.
    Only three had gone down since they left Freeport. One of them had been the unfortunate Klingerman. Garraty knew what the rest of them were thinking. It was too many tickets issued for them to just quit, any of them. Not with only twenty left to walk over. They would walk now until their bodies or minds shook apart.
    They passed over a bridge spanning a placid little brook, its surface lightly pocked by the rain. The guns roared, the crowd cheered, and Garraty felt the stubborn cranny of hope in the back of his brain open an infinitesimal bit more.
    “Did your girl look good to you?”
    It was Abraham, looking like a victim of the Bataan March. For some inconceivable reason he had shucked both his jacket and his shirt, leaving his bony chest and stacked ribcage bare.
    “Yeah,” Garraty said. “I hope I can make it back to her.”
    Abraham smiled. “Hope? Yeah, I’m beginning to remember how to spell that word, too.” It was like a mild threat. “Was that Tubbins?”
    Garraty listened. He heard nothing but the steady roar of the crowd. “Yeah, by God it was. Parker put the hex on him, I guess.”
    “I keep telling myself,” Abraham said, “that all I got to do is to continue putting one foot in front of the other.”
    “Yeah.”
    Abraham looked distressed. “Garraty . . . this is a bitch to say . . .”
    “What’s that?”
    Abraham was quiet for a long time. His shoes were big heavy Oxfords that looked horrendously heavy to Garraty (whose own feet were now bare, cold, and scraping raw). They clopped and dragged on the pavement, which had now expanded to three lanes. The crowd did not seem so loud or quite so terrifyingly close as it had ever since Augusta.
    Abraham looked more distressed than ever. “It’s a bitch. I just don’t know how to say it.”
    Garraty shrugged, bewildered. “I guess you just say it.”
    “Well, look. We’re getting together on something. All of us that are left.”
    “Scrabble, maybe?”
    “It’s a kind of a . . . a promise.”
    “Oh yeah?”
    “No help for anybody. Do it on your own or don’t do it.”
    Garraty looked at his feet. He wondered how long it had been since he was hungry, and he wondered how long it would be before he fainted if he didn’t eat something. He thought that Abraham’s Oxfords were like Stebbins—those shoes could carry him from here to the Golden Gate Bridge without so much as a busted shoelace . . . at least they looked that way.
    “That sounds pretty heartless,” he said finally.
    “It’s gotten to be a pretty heartless situation.” Abraham wouldn’t look at him.
    “Have you talked to all the others about this?”
    “Not yet. About a dozen.”
    “Yeah, it’s a real bitch. I can see how hard it is for you to talk about.”
    “It seems to get harder rather than easier.”
    “What did they say?” He knew what they said, what were they supposed to say?
    “They’re for it.”
    Garraty opened his mouth, then shut it. He looked at Baker up ahead. Bake was wearing his jacket, and it was soaked. His head was bent. One hip swayed and jutted awkwardly. His left leg had stiffened up quite badly.
    “Why’d you take off your shirt?” he asked Abraham suddenly.
    “It was making my skin itch. It was raising hives or something. It was a synthetic, maybe I have an allergy to synthetic fibers, how the hell should I know? What do you say, Ray?”
    “You look like a religious penitent or something.”
    “What do you say? Yes or no?”
    “Maybe I owe McVries a couple.” McVries was still close by, but it was impossible to tell if he could hear their conversation over the din of the crowd. Come on, McVries, he thought. Tell him I don’t owe you anything. Come on, you son of a bitch. But McVries said nothing.
    “All right, count me in,” Garraty said.
    “Cool.”
    Now I’m an animal, nothing but a dirty, tired, stupid animal. You did it. You sold it out.
    “If you try to help anybody, we can’t hold you back. That’s against the rules. But we’ll shut you out. And you’ll have broken your promise.”
    “I won’t try.”
    “Same goes for anyone who tries to help you.”
    “Yuh.”
    “It’s nothing personal. You know that, Ray. But we’re down