The Redemption of Callie & Kayden

moans and loses herself in my movements.
    She holds onto me, our skin damp, our breathing fitful as I still myself inside her. My head is tipped down and her breath is hitting my cheek as her fingers draw up and down my back. When I get control of myself again, I kiss her cheek and then start to pull back, but she tightens her legs around my waist and holds me in place, refusing to let me slip out of her.
    I lean back and look her in the eyes, searching for what’s wrong. “Are you okay?”
    She nods, with a funny look on her face. “I’m just not ready to let you go yet.”
    A smile reveals at my lips. And it’s genuine and not for show like most of my smiles are. I kiss her deeply with every ounce of passion I have in me. “Give me a few minutes,” I say and turn my hips to the side. “And I’ll be back in the game.”
    This time she releases me and I lie on my back, with my arm behind my head as I stare up at the ceiling. I’m very aware of my scars at the moment and how each one feels smaller somehow. I’m starting to realize something… something I’m not sure I want to realize. She makes me feel better and I wonder if that means I’m supposed to be with her. I don’t want it to mean that, though. I want her to be unrestricted.
    Pulling the sheet over her, she rotates onto her hip and brushes my hair out of my face. “What are you thinking about?” she asks, grazing a finger between my brows and erasing the worry line.
    I tip my head to the side and meet her gaze. “You really want to know?”
    She nods her head, lowering her hand to her hip, and my eyes trace her thin figure. “I always do.”
    I pivot to the side so we’re lying face to face. “I’m thinking that you should leave me.”
    Her breathing becomes ragged. “You want me to go?”
    I quickly place a hand on her hip. “Don’t think for a second that I want you to go. I never want you to go. I want you here. With me… but I don’t want
you
to be with
me
. I want you to be happy, if that makes any sense.”
    She considers what I said, biting on her bottom lip, and all I want to do is lean forward and bite it too, but it would defeat my whole purpose of trying to let her go. “I get what you’re saying,” she says. “But I don’t agree with it. You’re the only person…” Her bottom lip shakes as she takes a deep breath. “You’re the only person who I can ever feel whole with.”
    “You don’t know that.” I keep trying to push her away. “There could easily be other people out there.”
    She shakes her head. “There’s not… a-and I don’t want there to be.”
    “Callie,” I say softly and place my hand under her cheek, rubbing a finger across her birthmark on her temple. “I’m not good for you. You deserve better.” It gashes deep inside my chest to say the truth aloud. But it needs to be said.
    “There’s nothing better,” she utters quietly, staring at the foot of the bed, blinking back the tears. “You just need to realize that.”
    “I just want you to be free… from all my shit and my fucking complicated life.”
    “I don’t want to be free. I just want to be here. With you. I-I don’t care about your fucking complicated life or your problems. I just want
you
… and I want you to be happy. You deserve to be.”
    Fuck. No one’s ever said that to me. I don’t even know if I’m certain what happiness is. I can’t control myself anymore. Each one of my scars is throbbing and I need her to silence them. I lean in and grab the back of her head, bringing her lips to mine, and kiss her with so much intensity it rips my scars in half. I flip us over, pressing her down on her back as I run my hand down to her breast. She trembles as she moves her legs up so I fall down between her. I kiss her fervently, nipping at her lip as I touch her everywhere. When I finally pull away, I can barely breathe as I trail kisses down her jawline, her neck, her collarbone. I graze my teeth along her neck and suck on her soft skin as her legs latch around my waist. My head journeys down farther and her hips writhe up as I trace a circle around her nipple before sucking it into my mouth. She lets out a sexy whimper as her fingers tangle through my hair. I suck hard, needing more of her, before I travel to her other breast. I caress my tongue along that one too, until I can’t stand it anymore.
    I push back and grab another condom. Seconds later, I’m back inside her, wishing things would stay this way