Touchstone 1 - Stray

freestyle stroke, just breaststroke, so she asked me to teach her. And we’re doing swimming practice every afternoon until further notice. Today was a great day.
    Saturday, February 2
    Ructions
    Zan is now teaching me how to fall. Or how to throw myself on padded mats without too much bruising or unnecessary giggling. I find it hard to take seriously, and no matter what else I think or feel about Zan, I have to admire her patience. I think that it’s causing her a lot of trouble to babysit me, too, unless the Setari are just plain nasty to each other out of habit.
    The nastiness came out during this afternoon’s swimming session. Zan’s picking up freestyle quickly (Australian crawl, really, but everyone I know calls it freestyle), but it’ll take her a bit to really get into it, so we were having a race with breaststroke. I’m okay with short races, but if I try and do more than a couple of laps I run out of pep.
    But I can beat her in a short dash, and was terribly pleased about it. Problem was, so were the people watching us. Three Setari, two guys and a girl, and one of the guys was standing right on the edge of the pool where we touched. Gave me quite a fright, looking up and finding all this blacksuited leg and chest. I pushed back from the edge, just as Zan reached it, but they were more interested in her than me anyway.
    I don’t know if Zan had managed to figure out they were there before she looked up, but from what I could see of her face, she didn’t act surprised.
    “Truly, Namara, I’m starting to feel embarrassed for you,” said the guy. He had an amazing voice, really beautiful, and so wasted on such a putz. “Bad enough your squad’s been pulled off rotation so you can demonstrate infant-level combat skills, but now you’re actually being outdone by a stray.”
    Zan reminds me of a drowned kitten when she’s wet. Her hair sleeks down and makes her eyes look really big. The guy was so tall, and Zan being down in the water must have felt at a real disadvantage. But all she did was move to one side, haul herself easily out, and go pick up one of the towels.
    “Can I help you with something, Kajal?” she asked, once she’d dried her face.
    “Not swimming, obviously.” The guy was irritated that he’d not managed to get a reaction out of Zan, but made out he wasn’t bothered, laughing. “Lenton’s chances are looking better each day.”
    The Setari girl standing behind him touched his arm. “It’s an unfortunate situation,” she said, in a much more reasonable tone. “Twelfth Squad may have lost out on this rotation altogether, and Lenton does need to be taught to keep his temper. Worse still, I doubt the stray will be assigned to Twelfth Squad, if they do use it in the Ena. It’s very unfair on you.”
    I was glad I’d kept moving away, was at least ten metres from the edge. Not only was the girl enjoying a few sly digs at Zan while pretending to be nice, but she’d called me it! I’m not totally incapable of understanding the nuances of spoken Taren. Stupid idiots were acting like I was a performing animal, not a person.
    It occurred to me then that I no longer had the function which displays all the names of people over their heads. A full month after Sa Lents showed me how to use it, and I’d forgotten all about it since the accident. I don’t see what they achieved by making it so I couldn’t use it, but it was probably related to me losing almost all the other ‘public’ functions. I was able to call up the recorded memory of the Setari briefing, though, and work out that the Kajal guy was captain of the Fifth Squad, and the girl was captain of the Seventh. The other guy was also from the Seventh Squad. What they were trying to achieve with all the dick waving I couldn’t guess.
    At least they left after that, though another person showed up as Zan was turning back toward me. I was too far away to hear what she said, since her voice was soft, but Zan smiled at her, and then shrugged. So she’s not totally without friends. I practiced swimming underwater for a couple of minutes, till Zan told me that was enough for the day. It’s going to take a while to get used to people being able to talk in my head when I’m upside-down in a swimming pool.
    I didn’t bug her with questions while she escorted me back, didn’t really feel equal to it. Was even glad to be back in my room so I could get in the shower and cry myself sick.
    I do almost all my crying in the