Touchstone 1 - Stray

an extreme test for them.”
    Hard to say whether Zan would be pleased about that or not. “Why rest Setari so different First Squad?”
    “Different?” Zee asked, but I’d bet she knew what I meant.
    “Too serious. Competitive. Less…human.”
    She thought about it a long time before answering. “The senior Setari started the program later and early on lived with our families, attending KOTIS like it was a school. When we began to show positive results, the program was intensified, the talented living onsite and allowed few visits with their families. The younger Setari started earlier and were pushed harder and further and so are stronger than us. And we will need that strength. But they were given little chance to be children, and like us they’re burdened by the magnitude of the task. Without the Setari program, Tare would be a world of street battles and lurking death.” She opened the door to my box, and gave me an unhappy shrug. “The younger Setari, don’t misunderstand them. They are weapons. But they are not so different from you.”
    I thought about this for a long time after Zee left. Mainly about how much harder and further they’d be willing to push me. But also about growing up knowing you stood between your family and monsters.
    Wednesday, February 6
    Outfitting
    All my morning appointments with Zan have changed to morning appointments with Mara. For me last week revolved entirely around seeing Zan, and now for all I know I’ll never work with her again, and I really can’t see her showing up unexpectedly and taking me to eat fondue. The problem fidgeted around my head half the morning, and eventually I composed a little thank you note, doing my best to make it grammatically correct and everything – though I think that made it worse – and emailed it to her. She treated me as an assignment, but she never called me ‘it’. And I really enjoyed looking at her apartment, which is something she didn’t have to show me and something I bet she’s pretty private about.
    Mara is far more of a taskmaster with my dodging training. I suppose they’ve decided I’m healthy enough to step it up a little. She started with stretches and steps and all that stuff, but then she brought out a basket of balls and said I had to dodge them and threw them at me, one after another, harder and faster each time. Not at all martial arts-like, but effective at making me want to dodge.
    And also very glad to stop, which we did when Lohn showed up to take us to lunch. I get the distinct impression that Lohn and Mara are a couple, for all they don’t hang all over each other. Hell, for all I know they could be married. Even in the same canteen, it’s very different eating lunch with Lohn and Mara – particularly Lohn. He talks non-stop and makes big gestures with his hands, sprawls back taking up two chairs, and chats with every person who passes by. He’s the anti-Zan. Al l the Setari he talks to unbend to him at least a little. One of the people from Second Squad, a woman named Jeh Omai, joined us. Second Squad is the other ‘senior’ Setari squad, and Jeh is calm and relaxed and treats Lohn as if he’s an overlarge but endearing great dane puppy.
    With me she was straightforwardly curious, and asked me quite a few questions about what it was like to live on Muina. She’s actually the first person to ask me anything about that since Nenna’s friends, so I told her about trying to make a blanket, and that one of the first things I did when I briefly had the wide-ranging interface access was to look up how to make soap (basically oil and ashes, which I don’t see how it can turn into soap, but whatever). Mara said that very few of the Setari had even been to Muina, that it was considered so dangerous that even the squads who were cleared for an investigative mission there weren’t allowed to stay for more than a few hours, and that I was amazingly lucky to have survived. Lohn said First Squad had won itself a good luck charm, and I told him that Devlin actually meant ‘unlucky’. I think he thought I was joking.
    After lunch, Mara took me off to teach me about clothes. We went down to what I think must be a commissary, and I was given a light, stretchy black harness – a triangle at the back with two straps you slip your arms into and another which went around my ribs and joined like toffee when I held the ends together. Mara had me strip to my underwear in a cubicle and put on the harness and