Unfinished Business

blinked back tears, and tried not to be hurt when Vanessa removed her hand. “He grieved hard, but his family and his work got him through. He’ll be so pleased to see you, Van.”

    No one had called Vanessa by her nickname in more years than she could count. Hearing it now touched her.
    “Does he still have his office in his house?”
    “Of course. You’re not eating. Would you like something else?”
    “No, this is fine.” Dutifully she ate a forkful of salad.
    “Don’t you want to know about Brady?”
    “No.” Vanessa took another bite. “Not particularly.”
    There was something of the daughter she remembered in that look. The slight pout, the faint line between the brows. It warmed Loretta’s heart, as the polite stranger had not. “Brady Tucker followed in his father’s footsteps.”
    Vanessa almost choked. “He’s a doctor?”
    “That’s right. Had himself a fine, important position with some hospital in New York. Chief resident, I think Ham told me.”
    “I always thought Brady would end up pitching for the Orioles or going to jail.”
    Loretta laughed again, warmly. “So did most of us. But he turned into quite a respectable young man. Of course, he was always too handsome for his own good.”
    “Or anyone else’s,” Vanessa muttered, and her mother smiled again.
    “It’s always hard for a woman to resist the tall, dark and handsome kind, especially if he’s a rogue, as well.”
    “I think hood was the word.”
    “He never did anything really bad,” Loretta pointed out. “Not that he didn’t give Emily and Ham a few headaches. Well, a lot of headaches.” She laughed. “But the boy always looked out for his sister. I liked him for that. And he was taken with you.”
    Vanessa sniffed. “Brady Tucker was taken with anything in skirts.”

    “He was young.” They had all been young once, Loretta thought, looking at the lovely, composed stranger who was her daughter. “Emily told me he mooned around the house for weeks after you…after you and your father went to Europe.”
    “It was a long time ago.” Vanessa rose, dismissing the subject.
    “I’ll get the dishes.” Loretta began stacking them quickly. “It’s your first day back. I thought maybe you’d like to try out the piano. I’d like to hear you play in this house again.”
    “All right.” She turned toward the door.
    “Van?”
    “Yes?”
    Would she ever call her “Mom” again? “I want you to know how proud I am of all you’ve accomplished.”
    “Are you?”
    “Yes.” Loretta studied her daughter, wishing she had the courage to open her arms for an embrace. “I just wish you looked happier.”
    “I’m happy enough.”
    “Would you tell me if you weren’t?”
    “I don’t know. We don’t really know each other anymore.”
    At least that was honest, Loretta thought. Painful, but honest. “I hope you’ll stay until we do.”
    “I’m here because I need answers. But I’m not ready to ask the questions yet.”
    “Give it time, Van. Give yourself time. And believe me when I say all I ever wanted was what was best for you.”
    “My father always said the same thing,” she said quietly. “Funny, isn’t it, that now that I’m a grown woman I have no idea what that is.”
    She walked down the hall to the music room. There was a gnawing, aching pain just under her breastbone. Out of habit, she popped a pill out of the roll in her skirt pocket before she sat at the piano.
    She started with Beethoven’s “Moonlight” sonata, playing from memory and from the heart, letting the music soothe her. She could remember playing this piece, and countless others, in this same room. Hour after hour, day after day. For the love of it, yes, but often—too often—because it was expected, even demanded.
    Her feelings for music had always been mixed. There was her strong, passionate love for it, the driving need to create it with the skill she’d been given. But there had always also been the equally desperate need to please her father, to reach that point of perfection he had expected. That unattainable point, she thought now.
    He had never understood that music was a love for her, not a vocation. It had been a comfort, a means of expression, but never an ambition. On the few occasions she had tried to explain it, he had become so enraged or impatient that she had silenced herself. She, who was known for her passion and temper, had been a cringing child around one man. In all her life, she had never