William Monk 08 - The Silent Cry

rewarded?”
    “Why not?” Monk challenged. “Is there something wrong with that? Food and clothing for everyone, health, intelligence, a chance to succeed?”
    “And forgiveness, and pity, and courage?” Evan pressed. “Compassion for others, humility, and faith?”
    Monk frowned, the beginning of a doubt in his mind. “You say that as if the answer were not a certainty. Why not? I thought they were the qualities you valued most. Aren’t they?”
    “Do you value them?”
    “Yes! I may not always behave as if I do, but yes, certainly.”
    “But if the world were always just, and immediately so, then people would choose to be good, not out of compassion or pity, but because it would be idiotic to be anything else,” Evan reasoned. “Only a fool would council any act he knew he would be punished for immediately and certainly.”
    Monk said nothing.
    “Courage against what?” Evan went on. “Do the right thing and there can be nothing to fear. Virtue will always be rewarded straightaway. There will be no need for humility or forgiveness either. Justice will take care of everything. For that matter, neither will there be need for pity or generosity, because no one will need it. The remedy for every ill will lie with the sufferer. We would be full of judgment for each other—”
    “All right!” Monk cut across him. “You have made your point. Perhaps I would rather accept the world as it is than change it for the one you paint. Although there are times when I find this one almost beyond bearing, not for me, but for some of those I see.” He rose to his feet. “Your father would be proud of you. Perhaps you are wasted on a police beat instead of a pulpit.” He was frowning. “Do you want me to take you to these witnesses?”
    Evan rose also. “Yes, please.”
    Monk fetched his overcoat and Evan put his back on again, and together they went out into the dark, cold evening, walking side by side towards Tottenham Court Road and a hansom.
    Inside, rattling towards St. Giles, Monk spoke again, his voice uncertain, as if he were struggling for words, seizing the opportunity of the temporary blindness of the night to voice some troubling thought.
    “Does Runcorn ever speak to you about the past … about me?”
    Evan could hear the emotion in Monk’s voice and knew he was searching for something of which he was afraid.
    “Now and then, but very little,” he answered as they passed the Whitefields Tabernacle and continued down towards Oxford Street.
    “We used to work St. Giles together,” Monk went on, staring straight ahead of him. Evan could not see his face, but could judge from the sound of his voice. “Back before they rebuilt any of it. When it was known as the Holy Land.”
    “It must have been very dangerous,” Evan said to fill the silence.
    “Yes, We always went in with at least two at a time, usually more.”
    “He hasn’t spoken of it.”
    “No. He wouldn’t.” Monk’s voice dropped at the end of the sentence, betraying a sense of loss, not for Runcorn’s friendship but for whatever it was which had destroyed it. Evan understood what it was that disturbed him, but it was too delicate to speak between them. Monk wanted to know what it had been, but only step by step, so he could withdraw again if it became too ugly. It was his own soul he was exploring, the one territory from which there was no escape, the one enemy which must always be faced, sooner or later, more certain than anything else in life or death.
    “He never mentions family,” Evan said aloud. “He didn’t marry.”
    “Didn’t he …” Monk’s tone was remote, as if the remark were meaningless, but the tension in his body belied that.
    “I think he regrets it,” Evan added, remembering casual references made and the momentary grief in Runcorn’s face, instantly hidden. There had been a sergeant’s wedding anniversary; everyone had wished him well, spoken of their own families. For an instant Evan had seen the pain in Runcorn’s eyes, the knowledge of loneliness, of exclusion. He was not a man gifted by his nature or temperament to fill his own emptiness. He would have been happier with someone there, someone to encourage him when he failed, admire him, be grateful for his support, someone with whom he could share his successes.
    Had Monk, with his greater inner strength, his natural courage, intentionally or not, robbed Runcorn of that? Monk feared he had blocked Runcorn’s professional success,