Xenocide (Ender Wiggins Saga)

else has my passionate study of history been, except a search for humanity? Others find humanity by looking in their own hearts. Only lost souls need to search for it outside themselves.
    "The line's almost done," whispered Miro.
    So the service would begin soon.
    "Ready to have your sins purged?" whispered Valentine.
    "As the Bishop explained, he'll purge only the sins of this new body. I still have to confess and do penance for the sins I had left over from the old one. Not many carnal sins were possible, of course, but there's plenty of envy, spite, malice, and self-pity. What I'm trying to decide is whether I also have a suicide to confess. When my old body crumbled into nothing, it was answering the wish of my heart."
    "You should never have got your voice back," said Valentine. "You babble now just to hear yourself talk so prettily."
    He smiled and patted her arm.
    The Bishop began the service with prayer, giving thanks to God for all that had been accomplished in recent months. Conspicuous by omission was the creation of Lusitania's two newest citizens, though Miro's healing was definitely laid at God's door. He called Miro forward and baptized him almost at once, and then, because this was not a mass, the Bishop proceeded immediately to his homily.
    "God's mercy has an infinite reach," said the Bishop. "We can only hope he will choose to reach farther than we deserve, to forgive us for our terrible sins as individuals and as a people. We can only hope that, like Nineveh, which turned away destruction through repentance, we can convince our Lord to spare us from the fleet that he has permitted to come against us to punish us."
    Miro whispered, softly, so that only she could hear, "Didn't he send the fleet before the burning of the forest?"
    "Maybe the Lord counts only the arrival time, not the departure," Valentine suggested. At once, though, she regretted her flippancy. What was happening here today was a solemn thing; even if she wasn't a deep believer in Catholic doctrine, she knew that it was a holy thing when a community accepted responsibility for the evil it committed and did true penance for it.
    The Bishop spoke of those who had died in holiness-- Os Venerados, who first saved humanity from the descolada plague; Father Estevão, whose body was buried under the floor of the chapel and who suffered martyrdom in the cause of defending truth against heresy; Planter, who died to prove that his people's soul was from God, and not from a virus; and the pequeninos who had died as innocent victims of slaughter. "All of these may be saints someday, for this is a time like the early days of Christianity, when great deeds and great holiness were much more needed, and therefore much more often achieved. This chapel is a shrine to all those who have loved their God with all their heart, might, mind and strength, and who have loved their neighbor as themself. Let all who enter here do it with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, so that holiness may also touch them."
    The homily wasn't long, because there were many more identical services scheduled for that day-- the people were coming to the chapel in shifts, since it was far too small to accommodate the whole human population of Lusitania all at once. Soon enough they were done, and Valentine got up to leave. She would have followed close behind Plikt and Val, except that Miro caught at her arm.
    "Jane just told me," he said. "I thought you'd want to know."
    "What?"
    "She just tested the starship, without Ender in it."
    "How could she do that ?" asked Valentine.
    "Peter," he said. "She took him Outside and back again. He can contain her aiúa , if that's how this process is actually working."
    She gave voice to her immediate fear. "Did he--"
    "Create anything? No." Miro grinned-- but with a hint of the twisted wryness that Valentine had thought was a product of his affliction. "He claims it's because his mind is much clearer and healthier than Andrew's."
    "Maybe so," said Valentine.
    "I say it's because none of the philotes out there were willing to be part of his pattern. Too twisted."
    Valentine laughed a little.
    The Bishop came up to them then. Since they were among the last to leave, they were alone at the front of the chapel.
    "Thank you for accepting a new baptism," said the Bishop.
    Miro bowed his head. "Not many men have a chance to be purified so far along in their sins," he said.
    "And Valentine, I'm sorry I couldn't receive your-- namesake."
    "Don't