Your Heart Belongs to Me

face and the graceful line of her throat.
    His life was a pursuit of perfection, of which perhaps the world held none.
    Sometimes he imagined that he came close to it when writing lines of code for software. An exquisite digital creation, however, was as cold as a mathematical equation. The most fastidious software architecture was an object of mere precision, not of perfection, for it could not evoke an intense emotional response.
    In Samantha Reach, he’d found a beauty so close to perfection that he could convince himself this was his quest fulfilled.
    Gazing into the tree but focused on something far beyond the red geometry of those branches, Sam said, “After the accident, she was in a coma for a month. When she came out of it…she wasn’t the same.”
    Ryan was kept silent by the smoothness of her skin. This was the first he had heard of Teresa’s coma. Yet the radiance of Sam’s face, in the caress of the late sun, rendered him incapable of comment.
    “She still had to be fed through a tube in her stomach.”
    The only leaf shadows that touched Samantha’s face were braided across her golden hair and brow, as though she wore the wreath of Nature’s approval.
    “The doctors said she was in a permanent vegetative state.”
    Her gaze lowered through the branches and fixed on a cruciform of sunlight that, shimmering on the table, was projected by a beam passing through her wineglass.
    “I never believed the doctors,” she said. “Teresa was still complete inside her body, trapped but still Teresa. I didn’t want them to take out the feeding tube.”
    She raised her eyes to meet his, and he had to make of this a conversation.
    “But they took it out anyway?” he asked.
    “And starved her to death. They said she wouldn’t feel anything. Supposedly the brain damage assured that she’d have no pain.”
    “But you think she suffered.”
    “I know she did. During the last day, the last night, I sat with her, holding her hand, and I could feel her looking at me even though she never opened her eyes.”
    He did not know what to say to that.
    Samantha picked up her glass of wine, causing the cross of light to morph into an arrow that briefly quivered like a compass needle seeking true north in Ryan’s eyes.
    “I’ve forgiven my mother for a lot of things, but I’ll never forgive her for what she did to Teresa.”
    As Samantha took a sip of wine, Ryan said, “But I thought…your mother was in the same accident.”
    “She was.”
    “I was under the impression she died in the crash, too. Rebecca. Was that her name?”
    “She is dead. To me. Rebecca’s buried in an apartment in Las Vegas. She walks and talks and breathes, but she’s dead all right.”
    Samantha’s father had abandoned the family before the twins were two. She had no memory of him.
    Feeling that Sam should hold fast to what little family she had, Ryan almost encouraged her to give her mother a chance to earn redemption. But he kept silent on the issue, because Sam had his sympathy and his understanding.
    His grandparents and hers—all long dead—were of the generation that defeated Hitler and won the Cold War. Their fortitude and their rectitude had been passed along, if at all, in a diluted form to the next generation.
    Ryan’s parents, no less than Sam’s, were of that portion of the post-war generation that rejected the responsibilities of tradition and embraced entitlement. Sometimes it seemed to him that he was the parent, that his mother and father were the children.
    Regardless of the consequences of their behavior and decisions, they would see no need for redemption. Giving them the chance to earn it would only offend them. Sam’s mother was most likely of that same mind-set.
    Samantha put down her glass, but the sun made nothing of it this time.
    After a hesitation, as Ryan poured more wine for both of them, he said, “Funny how something as lovely as strawberry-tree flowers can peel the scab off a bad memory.”
    “Sorry.”
    “No need to be.”
    “Such a nice day. I didn’t mean to bring it down. Are you as ferociously hungry as I am?”
    “Bring me the whole steer,” he said.
    In fact, they ordered just the filet mignon, no horns or hooves.
    As the descending sun set fire to the western sky, strings of miniature white lights came on in the strawberry trees. On all the tables were candles in amber cups of faceted glass, and busboys lit them.
    The ordinary patio had become a magical place, and Samantha was