Your Heart Belongs to Me

painted her features into a stark kabuki mask.
    “What is the stink?” she asked.
    “Scented candles, scented oils.”
    “The other odor, under that.”
    “You’re probably smelling the pot.”
    “Marijuana?”
    “Yeah. The smoke saturates things. That’s why he burns scented candles, to mask it.”
    “Why does he smoke pot?”
    “I don’t know. Because he always has.”
    “He is addicted?”
    “They say it’s not addictive.”
    “Doesn’t marijuana make you mellow?”
    “I don’t use it. I don’t know. That’s what they say.”
    “He isn’t mellow,” she said.
    “No. He never has been.”
    Dressed in black slacks, black sweater, and black jacket, she was a shadow moving through shadows. For the most part, the various lamps and candles confirmed her presence only as their light found her hands and her face. Whatever the denomination of the light that paid on her skin, it was given back as gold.
    Ryan knew he should be alert for an opportunity to rush her and struggle for the weapon. Often, she pointed the gun away from him and seemed to be distracted by Jimmy’s nostalgic collection.
    He suspected, however, that her distraction was more apparent than real, that any opening he saw was only an opportunity to be gut-shot.
    Indicating another poster, she asked, “Who is this?”
    “Another band. The Grateful Dead. They changed the world.”
    “How did they change it?”
    “I don’t know. Maybe Dad can tell you.”
    “I know where your mother lives, but I have not met her yet.”
    “You’re in for a treat,” Ryan said.
    “Is she like him?”
    “Like but different. With her it’s alcohol and men, especially men who like alcohol.”
    “I am thinking about killing all three of you.”
    Ryan said nothing.
    At another poster, she said, “Who is this?”
    “Jim Morrison and the Doors.”
    “Did they change the world?”
    “That’s what I hear.”
    As Violet moved past him into the portion of the room that lay behind his La-Z-Boy, Ryan turned his head and started to turn in his seat to follow her.
    “Face forward,” she said, pointing the pistol at the bridge of his nose.
    He did as he was told.
    “If you turn your head to look back, I will shoot you. The people in these posters—where are they now?”
    “I don’t know. A lot of them are dead.”
    “So the world changed them,” she said.
    He could barely hear her soft steps. She must have picked up something to have a look at it, for it knocked slightly against a table when she put it down.
    In the lengthening silence, he searched his mind for a question or a comment that would begin to give him some control of their conversation.
    From so close that her voice startled him, from just behind his right ear, she said, “I told your father my name. Do you know the name of my sister?”
    The difference of intonation between the statement and the question was the difference between an emotionless declaration and the apparently innocent but entrapping query of a police detective. Her last eight words were a bottled accusation, and the wrong reply would pull the stopper, releasing her anger.
    After a hesitation that he realized might be dangerous, he said, “Yes. Her name was Lily.”
    “How did you learn her name? Did you deduce it from my flowers, from something that I said?”
    “No. I asked the family for it, and for a photo, which is how I know you’re identical twins.”
    “You were given a photo by the family?”
    “Yes.”
    “But I am the family.”
    “Well, I guess it came from your parents.”
    “Liar,” she said.
    She slammed the side of his head with what might have been the butt of the pistol, and blood burst from his crushed ear.
    As he tried to push up from the chair, the next blow landed on the top of his skull, so swiftly delivered after the first that the agony in his ear had just begun to bloom.
    A scintillation of pain followed the natural sutures between the frontal bone of his skull and the two parietals. Behind his eyes, which had squinched shut with the pain, he saw the squiggly line of those sutures picked out in the darkness by sputters of coppery sparks.
    Defensively, frantically, he clasped the top of his head with his hands, so the third blow cracked his fingers. He cried out, or thought he did, but even if he screamed, the fourth blow cut it short, and knocked him unconscious.
     

 
    FIFTY-THREE

    H e regained consciousness in stages defined by an increasing tolerance for light. At first,