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Alice Munros Best

Alice Munros Best

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know,” said Carla more soberly.
    “I didn’t say she did.”
    “She doesn’t have a clue about it.”
    “We could fix that.”
    Carla said, “No. No.”
    Clark went on as if she had not spoken.
    “We could say we’re going to sue. People get money for stuff like that all the time.”
    “How could you do that? You can’t sue a dead person.”
    “Threaten to go to the papers. Big-time poet. The papers would eat it up. All we have to do is threaten and she’d cave in.”
    “You’re just fantasizing,” Carla said. “You’re joking.”
    “No,” said Clark. “Actually, I’m not.”
    Carla said she did not want to talk about it anymore and he said okay.
    But they talked about it the next day, and the next and the next. He sometimes got notions like this that were not practicable, which might even be illegal. He talked about them with growing excitement and then – she wasn’t sure why – he dropped them. If the rain had stopped, if this had turned into something like a normal summer, he might have let this idea go the way of the others. But that had not happened, and during the last month he had harped on the scheme as if it was perfectly feasible and serious. The question was how much money to ask for. Too little, and the woman might not take them seriously, she might be inclined to see if they were bluffing. Too much might get her back up and she might become stubborn.
    Carla had stopped saying that it was a joke. Instead she told him that it wouldn’t work. She said that for one thing, people expected poets to be that way. So it wouldn’t be worth paying out money to cover it up.
    He said that it would work if it was done right. Carla was to break down and tell Mrs. Jamieson the whole story. Then Clark would move in, as if it had all been a surprise to him, he had just found out. He would be outraged, he would talk about telling the world. He would let Mrs. Jamieson be the one who first mentioned money.
    “You were injured. You were molested and humiliated and I was injured and humiliated because you are my wife. It’s a question of respect.”
    Over and over again he talked to her in this way and she tried to deflect him but he insisted.
    “Promise,” he said. “Promise.”
    THIS WAS BECAUSE of what she had told him, things she could not now retract or deny.
    Sometimes he gets interested in me?
    The old guy?
    Sometimes he calls me into the room when she’s not there?
    Yes.
    When she has to go out shopping and the nurse isn’t there either.
    A lucky inspiration of hers, one that instantly pleased him.
    So what do you do then? Do you go in?
    She played shy.
    Sometimes.
    He calls you into his room. So? Carla? So, then?
    I go in to see what he wants.
    So what does he want?
    This was asked and told in whispers, even if there was nobody to hear, even when they were in the neverland of their bed. A bedtime story, in which the details were important and had to be added to every time, and this with convincing reluctance, shyness, giggles,
dirty, dirty.
And it was not only he who was eager and grateful. She was too. Eager to please and excite him, to excite herself. Grateful every time it still worked.
    And in one part of her mind it
was
true, she saw the randy old man, the bump he made in the sheet, bedridden indeed, almost beyond speechbut proficient in sign language, indicating his desire, trying to nudge and finger her into complicity, into obliging stunts and intimacies. (Her refusal a necessity, but also perhaps strangely, slightly disappointing, to Clark.)
    Now and then came an image that she had to hammer down, lest it spoil everything. She would think of the real dim and sheeted body, drugged and shrinking every day in its rented hospital bed, glimpsed only a few times when Mrs. Jamieson or the visiting nurse had neglected to close the door. She herself never actually coming closer to him than that.
    In fact she had dreaded going to the Jamiesons’, but she needed the money, and she felt sorry for Mrs. Jamieson, who seemed so haunted and bewildered, as if she was walking in her sleep. Once or twice Carla had burst out and done something really silly just to loosen up the atmosphere. The kind of thing she did when clumsy and terrified first-time horseback riders were feeling humiliated. She used to try that too when Clark was stuck in his moods. It didn’t work with him anymore. But the story about Mr. Jamieson had worked, decisively.
    THERE WAS NO way to avoid the puddles in the path

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