And the Mountains Echoed
the way there first thing tomorrow.â
âMaybe one day,â Nabi says.
âWhat, me walking?â
âNo,â he stammers, âI meant â¦â and then he grins when Masooma bursts out laughing.
Outside, Nabi passes Parwana the cash. He leans one shoulder against the wall and lights a cigarette. Masooma is inside, taking her afternoon nap.
âI saw Saboor earlier,â he says, picking at his finger. âTerrible thing. He told me the babyâs name. I forget now.â
âPari,â
Parwana says.
He nods. âI didnât ask, but he told me heâs looking to marry again.â
Parwana looks away, trying to pretend she doesnât care, but her heart is thumping in her ears. She feels a film of sweat blooming on her skin.
âLike I said, I didnât ask. Saboor was the one who brought it up. He pulled me aside. He pulled me aside and told me.â
Parwana suspects that Nabi knows what she has carried with her for Saboor all these years. Masooma is her twin, but it is Nabi who has always understood her. But Parwana doesnât see why her brother is telling her this news. What good does it do? WhatSaboor needs is a woman unanchored, a woman who wonât be held down, who is free to devote herself to him, to his boy, his newborn daughter. Parwanaâs time is already consumed. Accounted for. Her whole life is.
âIâm sure heâll find someone,â Parwana says.
Nabi nods. âIâll be by again next month.â He crushes his cigarette underfoot and takes his leave.
When Parwana enters the hut, she is surprised to see Masooma awake. âI thought you were napping.â
Masooma drags her gaze to the window, blinking slowly, tiredly.
When the girls were thirteen, they sometimes went to the crowded bazaars of nearby towns for their mother. The smell of freshly sprayed water rose from the unpaved street. The two of them strolled down the lanes, past stalls that sold hookahs, silk shawls, copper pots, old watches. Slaughtered chickens hung by their feet, tracing slow circles over hunks of lamb and beef.
In every corridor Parwana would see menâs eyes snapping to attention when Masooma passed by. She saw their efforts to behave matter-of-factly, but their gazes lingered, helpless to tear away. If Masooma glanced in their direction, they looked idiotically privileged. They imagined they had shared a moment with her. She interrupted conversations midsentence, smokers mid-drag. She was the trembler of knees, the spiller of teacups.
Some days it was all too much for Masooma, as if she was almost ashamed, and she told Parwana she wanted to stay inside all day, wanted not to be looked at. On those days, Parwana thoughtit was as though, somewhere deep inside, her sister understood dimly that her beauty was a weapon. A loaded gun, with the barrel pointed at her own head. Most days, however, the attention seemed to please her. Most days, she relished her power to derail a manâs thoughts with a single fleeting but strategic smile, to make tongues falter over words.
It blistered the eyes, beauty like hers.
And then there was Parwana, shuffling next to her, with her flat chest and sallow complexion. Her frizzy hair, her heavy, mournful face, and her thick wrists and masculine shoulders. A pathetic shadow, torn between her envy and the thrill of being seen with Masooma, sharing in the attention as a weed would, lapping up water meant for the lily upstream.
All her life, Parwana had made sure to avoid standing in front of a mirror with her sister. It robbed her of hope to see her face beside Masoomaâs, to see so plainly what she had been denied. But in public, every strangerâs eye was a mirror. There was no escape.
She carries Masooma outside. The two of them sit on the charpoy Parwana has set up. She makes sure to stack cushions so Masooma can comfortably lean her back against the wall. The night is quiet but for the chirping crickets, and dark too, lit only by a few lanterns still shimmering in windows and by the papery white light of the three-quarter moon.
Parwana fills the hookahâs vase with water. She takes two matchhead-sized portions of opium flakes with a pinch of tobacco and drops the mix into the hookahâs bowl. She lights the coal on the metal screen and hands the hookah to her sister. Masooma takes a deep puff from the hose, reclines against the cushions, andasks if she can rest her legs on
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