Beautiful Stranger

stood, moved to the dance floor, and cut in. “My turn.”
    Those deep brown eyes of hers darkened, and instead of posing my hands like she’d done with Derek, she slipped her arms around my neck, stretched to kiss my jaw, and whispered, “I’m pretty sure it’s always your turn.”
    “I thought there was supposed to be a little more distance between us when we dance to this,” I said, smiling as I bent to kiss her.
    “Not with you.”
    “Good.”
    She broke into a drunken, playful smile. “But I’m starving. I want a burger the size of my head.”
    A laugh burst from my throat and I bent to kiss her forehead.“There’s a place near you that fits the bill. I’ll text you an address. Shall I head home to shower and meet you there in an hour?”
    “Dinner two nights in a row?” she asked, looking more carefully eager than anything. Where was the cautious, distancing woman I knew only days ago? She’d evaporated. I suspected Distancing Sara had always been a bit of a fantasy.
    Hers, not mine.
    I nodded, feeling my smile slip away. I was done with the pretense that we had any boundaries left. The single expectant word came out hoarse: “Yeah.”
    She bit her lip to hold back the smile, but it was impossible to miss.

Thirteen
    I’d been in New York for two months and had no real sense of what I was doing when I wasn’t at work. I ran. I had a few friends I would meet for shows, or coffee, or drinks. I talked to my parents a couple of times a week. I wasn’t lonely; I certainly had a fuller life here than I’d had by the end of my time in Chicago. But most of my life outside of work had become Max.
    How in the hell had that happened?
    Casual Sex: You’re Doing It Wrong.
    Then again, for his part, Max never seemed surprised by anything that happened between us. Not when I coerced him into having sex in the club, or when I came to his office offering sex and nothing more, and not even when I sought him out only to break down in his shower, begging him to just take me and make everything else go away.
    Even his friends were amazing. Derek was possibly the largest human I had ever met, and though he was not exactly light on his feet, dancing with him hadbeen some of the most fun I’d had in ages . . . other than every time I was with Max.
    I waved goodbye to Derek and he winked at me, reminding with a nod to where Max sat at the bar about what he’d said on the dance floor: “He’s a prick, that one.”
    Under the single light of the dance floor, Derek had looked even muddier than he had when I’d introduced myself. I’d glanced down at my dress and noted a few handprints near my shoulder. “He’s not so bad.”
    Laughing, Derek had patted my head. “He’s the worst, nice to everyone and never fucks up. Always there for his mates, never comes off like an arsehole.” He’d winked. “What a fucking nightmare.”
    Thanking Maddie as we left, I heard the team’s continued drunken singing from behind me in the bar as Max hailed a cab and held the door for me as I climbed in.
    “See you in a bit,” he said, before closing the door and giving me a small wave through the window as we pulled away from the curb.
    I looked out the back window. Max stood still, watching my cab disappear down Lenox.

    We’d decided on something simple for dinner: burgers at a small, quiet place in the East Village.
    Quiet was good. Quiet would help drown out the mayhem in my brain. My plan to have fun, be wild, and keep things compartmentalized had gone to hell.
    I went home and showered off the mud from dancing with Derek and Max, and put on a simple blue jersey halter dress. The songs from the bar echoed in my ear, and I let myself imagine seeing his friends again: curling up with Max on a friend’s couch and watching a movie with them, or cupping my hands around a mug of coffee on the sidelines of a rugby match. Each fantasy felt like a given, but I stopped thinking about any of them when the tendrils of my mind began to analyze, worry, play devil’s advocate.
    I walked out into the hall and locked my apartment, reminding myself, One thing at a time. No one is making you do any of this.
    Even on this Saturday night, with people out enjoying the lazy evening sunset, it was less hectic in the Village than it ever felt in midtown. When had this place started to feel like home? Max chose a restaurant within walking distance of my building; I no longer needed to read every street sign to find my way there.
    Strands