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think that my step-loser might be involved, but I can't say anything about it because my mom is covering for him, and if I rat him out she'll probably go to jail forever. I just sucked Heath's blood and got interrupted by some gang wannabes who I think I might have kinda sorta accidentally killed, and Loren Blake and I have been making out. So, how was your day?"
    The old Stevie Rae flickered inside this one's red eyes. "Ohmygoodness," she said.
    "Yeah."
    "You've been making out with Loren Blake?" As usual, Stevie Rae got to the heart of the juiciest gossip. "What was it like?"
    I sighed and watched her start on her second bag of blood. "It was amazing. I know this is going to sound totally ridiculous, but I think we might really have something together."
    "Just like Romeo and Juliet," she said between swallows.
    "Uh, Stevie Rae, let's use a different analogy, shall we? R&J didn't end so well."
    "I'll bet he tastes good," she said.
    "Huh?"
    "I mean his blood."
    "I wouldn't know."
    "Yet," she said, and reached for another bag o' blood.
    "Speaking of. You'd better slow down on the blood drinking. Neferet called in the Vamp's Sons of Erebus warriors and it's pretty hard to sneak out of school right now. I'm not sure when I'll be able to get back here with more tasty bloody goodness."
    A shiver passed through Stevie Rae's body. She had been looking almost normal, but at my words her expression flattened out and her eyes reddened.
    "I can't stand it much longer."
    She'd spoken in such a low, strained voice that I almost didn't hear her.
    "Is it that big of a deal, Stevie Rae? I mean, can't you just ration yourself or something?"
    "It's not like that! I can feel it slipping away… more and more each day… each hour."
    "What's slipping away?"
    "My humanity!" she practically sobbed.
    "But, honey," I scooted over and put my arm around her, ignoring the weird way she smelled and the fact that her body was so rocklike. "You're better. I'm here now. We'll figure this out."
    Stevie Rae looked into my eyes. "Right now, I can feel your pulse. I know every time your heart beats. There's something inside of me that is screaming at me to rip your throat open and drink your blood. And that something is growing stronger." She pulled away from me, moving to press herself against the end of the couch. "I can put on the old Stevie Rae's face, but it's only part of the monster in me. I just do it so that I can hunt you."
    I took a deep breath and refused to look away from her. "Okay, I know some of that is true. But I don't believe all of it, and I don't want you to believe all of it either. Your humanity is still there, inside you. Yeah, it might be getting buried, but it's still there. And that means we're still best friends. Plus, think about it. You don't have to hunt me. Hello—I'm right here. Not exactly hiding."
    "I think you might be in danger from me," she whispered.
    I smiled. "I'm tougher than you think, Stevie Rae." Moving slowly so I didn't startle her, I reached out and put my hand over hers. "Draw on the power of earth. I believe you're different than the rest of the, uh—" I paused, trying to figure out what to call them.
    "Gross undead dead kids?" Stevie Rae supplied.
    "Yeah. You're different from the rest of the gross undead dead kids because of your affinity with the earth. Draw on that and it will help you fight whatever is going on inside you."
    "Darkness…it's all darkness inside me," she said.
    "It's not all darkness. The earth is in there, too."
    "Okay … okay…" she panted. "The earth. I'll remember. I'll really try."
    "You can beat this, Stevie Rae. We can beat this."
    "Help me," she said, suddenly squeezing my hand so hard I almost cried out. "Please, Zoey, help me."
    "I will. I promise."
    "Soon. It has to be soon."
    "It will be. I promise," I repeated, not having a clue how I was going to keep my promise.
    "What are you going to do?" Stevie Rae asked, eyes desperately locked with mine.
    I blurted the only thing that came into my brain. "I'm going to cast a circle and ask for Nyx's help."
    Stevie Rae blinked. "That's it?"
    "Well, our circle is powerful and Nyx is a goddess. What more do we need?" I sounded way surer than I felt.
    "You want me to represent earth again?" Her voice quivered.
    "No. Yes." I paused guiltily, wondering what I was supposed to do about Aphrodite. It had been clear when she manifested earth that she was supposed to join our circle. But would it freak Stevie Rae out to see her place