Covet (Clann)

your parents’ hearts?” Oh lord, how badly I wanted it to be just him and me, free from the rules, free to be together. But then we’d be just like my parents, always on the run, always hiding. There was nowhere we could go to be together beyond the reach of the Clann or the vamp council. Even if he wasn’t in the Clann anymore, he’d still be a descendant. And I would still be a vampire.
    His lips thinned. “They’ll get over it, trust me.”
    “And the vampire council?”
    “We’ll talk to them, convince them that our being together isn’t a danger to their peace treaty.”
    “Tristan, you don’t get it. We’re not Romeo and Juliet. There’s a reason the Clann and the council hate and fear each other. We’re a danger to each other, whether you’re in the Clann or not. You could set me on fire with one snap of your fingers. And I could kill you just as easily. As long as vamps and descendants are each others’ biggest threats, they’re always going to be enemies. You and I will never get permission to be together.”
    “Just because they have the power to kill each other doesn’t mean they have to. We can show them that, make them see that they can choose to coexist in peace. Don’t you see? You and me together… we’re the proof they need to make them believe it can be done.”
    “Not everything’s a simple choice like that.”
    “Sure it is. You could have bitten me a thousand times by now, but you never did. Right?”
    “What about all the times I kissed you?”
    He hesitated. “So you took a little energy. It was worth it.”
    “It put you in danger. I put you in danger. I took a little bit of your life every time we kissed. That’s not a choice I can make, either. It’s automatic. There’s no way to turn that off.”
    He scowled. “So we’ll keep working around it. You’re not a danger to me.”
    He was an idiot. Or suicidal. How could he not see the truth, how impossible this whole situation was? No matter how much we loved each other, no amount of love or wishing would change the fact that I was a threat to his life every second we were alone together. Even now, right this second, he was in danger. And he refused to see it.
    I would save him from himself and make him see.
    I stepped closer to him and rose up on tiptoe, finally giving in to the need to press against him. He groaned, wrapped his arms around me, and ducked his head.
    I kissed him, parting his lips, purposefully deepening the kiss past sweetness straight into mind-wrecking loss of control. His energy poured into me, a heady rush of power that sang through my veins like liquid lightning.
    He moaned into my mouth, and even his breath was food. I didn’t even have to work for it. All I had to do to drain him was kiss him. There was no internal on and off switch, no controlling the flow of energy from him to me. I was an endless, bottomless cup that would take every drop of his life until he was gone. And there was nothing I could do to change that ability.
    He staggered backward to the wall, pulling me with him. And still we kissed, his fingers spread wide over my back, mine threaded into the soft, unruly curls at the nape of his neck. His heart pounded against my chest, its rhythm slowly growing fainter.
    I was killing him. And part of me didn’t want to stop.
    His knees shook against my thighs then gave out. He slid down the wall to the floor.
    Only then did I break off the kiss with a gasp and step away from him. He sat on the gray industrial carpeting, struggling for breath, and that struggle brought tears to my eyes.
    “How do you feel?” I whispered.
    “Wow,” he whispered, his eyes dazed.
    My hands ached to reach out to him again, to pull him to his feet. To pull him closer for another kiss. “Can you stand up?”
    He laughed, unaware that I was crumbling to pieces inside. “You’ll have to give me a couple of minutes to recover here.”
    He’d just proven my point. And my biggest fear.
    “How can you refuse to see how dangerous I am to you? How dangerous every vamp is to every descendant? You can’t even stand up after one kiss from me. If another vampire were here right now, would you have enough energy to protect yourself?”
    He frowned, his eyes blinking fast as if to clear his vision. He was so stubborn. But I would save him, no matter what it took. I had to. I couldn’t live in a world without him in it, even if I couldn’t be with him.
    I leaned closer to him until my lips hovered