Der Schädelring: Thriller (German Edition)

she said, walking toward the Lexus, hoping Mitchell wouldn't stare at her and see the box. She needn't have worried. Mitchell hadn't really looked at her in a long time, not at the way she really was. Mitchell must have seen only the Julia he wanted to see, the perfect match for his perfection, a mirror that positively reflected his own self-image.
    She got in the car and, before he reached the driver's side, slipped the box into her purse. She took a last look at the barn in the distance, trembled at the memory of panic, and closed her eyes as Mitchell backed out of the drive. Neither spoke on the trip back in. They were entering the city when Mitchell turned on the radio, a middle-of-the-road pop station. The earnestly bland emoting of the singers was almost as interminable as Mitchell's stoic silence.
    Carrie Underwood was serving up a dish of love as if it were a slice of frozen pizza when Julia finally spoke. "I'm sorry I was strange back there. But you didn't have to yell at me, Mitchell. I needed you."
    Mitchell was in heavy traffic now, and spared her only a cold glance before refocusing on the bumper ahead. "Need. Well, what about my needs?"
    "What about them?"
    "You call and tell me you're flying in from North Carolina, and what's the first thing I think about? How we're going to have a great time together, get close, reaffirm the wonderful thing we share. God forbid, even spend the night together. And you barely give me the time of day. It's always about you, isn't it?"
    Julia had no answer. Though she was burning inside, she couldn't help but admit the truth of it. If only Mitchell could see she needed an ally more than she needed a lover. She hated herself for not being able to reach him, for having so very little to offer. Even God had no use for her.
    "You think it's easy to go six months without sex?" Mitchell continued, his grip tightening on the steering wheel. "I mean, if you were holding out on religious grounds, maybe I could respect you. But I can't help thinking you're teasing me on purpose. Your tap runs so hot and cold, I sometimes wonder if you're trying to make me crazy, too."
    "I'm not crazy." She stared straight ahead, at the spires of the tall buildings looming in the thick of Memphis. "They call it 'panic disorder.' Or 'personality disorder not otherwise specified, with schizotypal traits,' depending on whom you ask."
    "That's what Lance Danner says. But I'm sure he had his own reasons for keeping you on a short leash." The traffic had jammed and slowed to a crawl. Mitchell turned to look at her. "I don’t care if these screwballs get their jollies by turning you on a spit and roasting you over the flames of your own juices, but I wish they’d leave a little meat on the bone for me.”
    "Let me out at the next corner." The hotel was three blocks away. Even though Creeps filled the sidewalks and lurked in the alleys, they were a safer risk than Mitchell.
    "Don't be ridiculous, Julia." Mitchell's tone changed, became patronizing. "Let's have dinner."
    The traffic backed up to a stop, and Julia opened her door.
    " What do you think you're doing? " Mitchell shouted. But Julia was already out of her seat, her purse under her arm, dodging between two parked cars and heading down the sidewalk. Mitchell called her name once more, but a blaring car horn forced him to close the passenger door and move with the traffic.
    Julia tried to avoid looking at the strangers who passed her, the people who lurked in doorways, those who hid behind newspapers or peered out from windows. A police siren sliced into her like a laser, its frenzy echoing off the concrete facades. Car exhaust hung heavy in her throat and in her nose. The city's humid stink pressed against her like a second skin, and she suddenly longed for the clean, fresh smell of the Blue Ridge forest.
    She kept her eyes on the sidewalk, concentrating on making it to the next crack, and the next, trying to ignore the hundreds of moving shoes. She hugged her purse close to her chest. To have it snatched now, when she finally had a clue to her past that might be more valuable than money, would be the final joke played by this cruel city.
    Someone bumped into her, she gasped and glanced up despite herself—
    A bad man, face hidden by a hood —
    She gave a small scream, and the man backed away, his hands spread in innocence.
    "Sorry, lady," he said, sweat beading his balding head. He wasn't one of the bad people, just an overstressed, overweight