Drop City

the cheekbones and everything else a pale putrescent green. This wasn't the year for sexy costumes. Or the place. “Oh, yeah,” Ronnie heard himself say, “groovy. Super.”
    “What about _me,__ Pan?” Star said. She pursed her lips and simpered and he couldn't read her eyes, not at all. He wondered if there was something there still, or if she was cutting him loose, goodbye, so long, no regrets, and so what if they were in Mr. Boscovich's class together and outdid Lewis and Clark and balled under the stars and shared every last nickel? So what?
    Lydia said, “I'm surprised you never made it in to see me dance--what's the matter, baby, you lose interest? Or was I just not worth a four-hour drive?”
    The three of them broke down then, poking, catcalling, gobbling, pounding the table with the shining heels of their hands. Ha-ha. Big laugh. And Ronnie--Pan--got sucked into it, trying to make excuses, and the excuses were real, they were true, because the car was, in fact, terminal and Joe flew only when he felt like it and he hadn't felt like it lately. What was he supposed to do--walk?
    “So now I look dynamite, right? Now that I'm sitting two inches from you.” Lydia flashed her purple eyes at him. She was joking, fooling with him, her tone light and probing, but then her face clamped up on him, just like that. “And I suppose, Mr. _Pan,__ Mr. Big Lover with your big dick, you want me to just roll over and make it with you as if I'm starved for it or something? Is that it?”
    Ronnie was at an impasse. He was stoned, he was tired, he wanted to get laid, but Socrates would have had a hard time with this one--yes was the honest answer, but yes closed the door, and no was just another kind of groveling, and he didn't care how hard up he was, he wasn't going to grovel, especially not for Lydia. She wasn't even his type.
    Out of the suspension came Marco's voice: “You took both of the rifles and the handgun too. They don't belong to you, brother, and we want them back.”
    “Oh, come on, Marco,” Star said, her voice gone tight in her throat, “not now.”
    “You get your moose yet--you and who, Bosky, Dale and Bruce? They still living with you?”
    “Who? You mean Sky Dog?”
    “Yeah, _Bruce.__ That's his name, you know, just like you're Ronnie and I'm Marco and Jiminy's--what's your name, anyway?”
    Jiminy's voice, a whisper, a croak: “Paul Atkins.”
    “Right, Paul. Did you get your moose?”
    Another tough question. Yes and you're damned; no and you're an incompetent and you give the guns back anyway. “Yes,” he heard himself say. “A bull. Prime. Joe says he must have weighed eleven hundred pounds. We spotted him from the air--he was right out there in the open, this big blotch moving across the snow. I mean, we've got meat, plenty of it. I mean, if you want some--”
    But what Marco said, predictably, was: “We want the guns.”
    “Okay,” he said, “I hear you.” He squinted into the gloom of the upper bunk and picked up the focused glare of Marco's eyes. There was no way he was giving up the handgun--and it was just pure luck he wasn't wearing it now--or the thirty-ought-six either. The thirty-thirty, maybe. Maybe that. “Tomorrow. I swear.”
    Then it was Star going on about the garden and how they'd got practically nothing out of it--they started too late, and they'd learned a lesson there--but the pot came out okay, no buds to speak of but they'd dried out the leaves and got something out of it that wasn't half bad. It got you there, anyway. And then there was a silence and Star, in her brightest voice, was saying, “Come on, Jiminy, Merry, Marco, let's go trick or treat over at Norm's and leave these two to have a little privacy for a while, what do think? Huh?”
    No sooner had the outer door slammed than Lydia got up to lay a couple of sticks on the fire, though compared to Bosky's the cabin seemed as airtight as a Volkswagen and it must have been eighty-five already. She left the door of the stove open so they could watch the flames, and he appreciated the gesture, but he was sweating through his clothes and his throat was so dry he could have died for a glass of iced tea or a root beer--or a root beer float, A&W, just walk up to the window and give them your order on a muggy hot upstate New York day that scorched the skin off the back of your neck, the cicadas buzzing in the trees and the waxed cup perspiring in your hand. How about that for a fantasy? It was funny. Here he