Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close

self-conscious. She said, “Do you have more things that you need, or more that you don't need?” I said, “It depends on what it means to need.”
    She said, “Believe it or not, I used to be idealistic.” I asked her what “idealistic” meant. “It means you live by what you think is right.” “You don't do that anymore?” “There are questions I don't ask anymore.” An African-American woman brought me coffee on a silver tray. I told her, “Your uniform is incredibly beautiful.” She looked at Ada. “Really,” I said. “I think light blue is a very, very beautiful color on you.” She was still looking at Ada, who said, “Thanks, Gail.” As she walked back to the kitchen I told her, “Gail is a beautiful name.”
    When it was just the two of us again, Ada told me, “Oskar, I think you made Gail feel quite uncomfortable.” “What do you mean?” “I could tell that she felt embarrassed.” “I was just trying to be nice.” “You might have tried too hard.” “How can you try too hard to be nice?” “You were being condescending.” “What's that?” “You were talking to her like she was a child.” “No I wasn't.” “There's no shame in being a maid. She does a serious job, and I pay her well.” I said, “I was just trying to be nice.” And then I wondered, Did I tell her my name was Oskar?
    We sat there for a while. She stared out the window, like she was waiting for something to happen in Central Park. I asked, “Would it be OK if I snooped around your apartment?” She laughed and said, “Finally someone says what he's thinking.” I looked around a bit, and there were so many rooms that I wondered if the apartment's inside was bigger than its outside. But I didn't find any clues. When I came back she asked if I wanted a finger sandwich, which freaked me out, but I was very polite and just said, “Jose.” “Pardon?” “Jose.” “I'm sorry. I don't understand what that means.” “Jose. As in, 'No way...'” She said, “I know what I am.” I nodded my head, even though I didn't know what she was talking about or what it had to do with anything. “Even if I don't like what I am, I know what I am. My children like what they are, but they don't know what they are. So tell me which is worse.” “What are the options again?” She cracked up and said, “I like you.”
    I showed her the key, but she had never seen it, and couldn't tell me anything about it.
    Even though I told her I didn't need any help, she made the doorman promise to put me in a cab. I told her I couldn't afford a cab. She said, “I can.” I gave her my card. She said, “Good luck,” and put her hands on my cheeks, and kissed the top of my head.
    That was Saturday, and it was depressing.
    Dear Oskar Schell,
    Thank you for your contribution to the
    American Diabetes Foundation. Every
    dollar—or, in your case, fifty cents—counts.
    I have enclosed some additional literature
    about the Foundation, including our mission
    statement, a brochure featuring past activities
    and successes, as well as some information about
    our future goals, both short- and long-term.
    Thank you, once more, for contributing to
    this urgent cause. You are saving lives.
    With gratitude,
    Patricia Roxbury
    President, New York Chapter
    This might be hard to believe, but the next Black lived in our building, just one floor above us. If it weren't my life, I wouldn't have believed it. I went to the lobby and asked Stan what he knew about the person who lived in 6A. He said, “Never seen anyone go in or come out. Just a lot of deliveries and a lot of trash.” “Cool.” He leaned down and whispered, “Haunted.” I whispered back, “I don't believe in the paranormal.” He said, “Ghosts don't care if you believe in them,” and even though I was an atheist, I knew he wasn't right.
    I walked back up the steps, this time past our floor and to the sixth. There was a mat in front of the door which said Welcome in twelve different languages. That didn't seem like something a ghost would put in front of his apartment. I tried the key in the lock, but it didn't work, so I rang the buzzer, which was exactly where our buzzer was. I heard some noise inside, and maybe even some creepy music, but I was brave and just stood there.
    After an incredibly long time the door opened. “Can I help you!” an old man asked, but he asked it extremely loudly, so it was more like a scream. “Yes, hello,” I said. “I live downstairs