Forever Too Far

were a helluva lot nicer than Nan’s.
          “I stepped up. Last chick I fucked was you,” I replied. She’d walked into that one.
         Paige looked at me then Nan with bloodshot eyes. I was pretty sure she’d been smoking pot last night. “What the fuck?” she grumbled pulling the sheet up to cover herself.
         “Nan’s here to make my life hell. Ignore her,” I said rolling on my back and propping my hands behind my head.
          “Really? This is what we’ve become?” Nan asked.
         “This is what you made us, Nan. You wanted to screw around well I agree. It’s fun. Thanks for the idea.”
          “Paige, for godsake, get some clothes on and leave. We’re trying to have a conversation,” Nan snapped at Paige who was sitting quietly listening to us.
          I reached over and patted her leg. “Don’t leave. Her ass has been shown the door. She needs to take it,” I told Paige. I really had rather they both leave but I wasn’t an ass. I wouldn’t kick Paige out. I’d let her leave on her own.
         “For real? You’re gonna just whore around and not even let me explain? Did you know I was in a rehab? Did you care? You sure as hell didn’t call me. No one did. Not even Rush.”
         I felt a small pang for her but it was really small. Sometimes I still saw that little girl who wanted someone to want her so bad. Those were the times I had compassion. Then I remembered the bitch she had become and decided she deserved what she got.
          “When you dish shit out you get shit back. That’s what my granddaddy always told me. Maybe somebody should have taught you that too. Saved us all a fucking load of trouble.”
          Nan pointed at Paige. “Leave. Now.”
          I grabbed Paige’s arm. “Ignore her.”
          Paige looked back and forth between the two of us and then shook her head. “You two are all kinds of fucked up. I think I’ll go home and get some rest. My head can’t take this.” She started to get up then reached over and kissed my cheek before crawling out of the bed naked.
          I admired her ass while she got her clothes on for Nan’s sake not because I really wanted to. I was too tired to think about naked females.
         Paige waved bye to me then hurried out the door carrying her shoes. I had no idea where her car was but that didn’t matter right now. She lived two floors up in the same condo complex as I did. Which was another reason she was handy.
         Nan walked over to the bed and sat down.
         “Get off my bed, Nan. I swear to God I’ll tell you every detail of what Paige and I did on these sheets last night if you don’t get your damn ass off my bed,” I warned. I couldn’t really remember exactly what we’d done last night. But Nan didn’t have to know that.
         “You’re disgusting,” she screamed, standing up and glaring at me.
         “Yeah, so are you. At least I know Paige. She’s not some girl I just plucked off the damn street to fuck.”
          Her flashed with unleashed fury. I’d called her shit. She’d wanted to push me away and she’d succeeded. I had seen enough. I wasn’t interested anymore.
          “You said you loved me,” she reminded me.
         “I thought I might could love you, Nan. But then I woke up and realized a hot fuck and good pussy isn’t love. It’s just really good sex.”
          The hurt look in her eyes should have made me feel guilty but it didn’t. I had confused need and want with love. I didn’t know what it was like to love someone. Not the way Rush loved Blaire. I’d never felt that. I knew that now. I had no fucking clue and I was pretty damn sure I never would.
         “Fine. You want to hurt me then do it. I deserve it,” Nan spat, standing up and walking back to the door. “But this isn’t over, Grant. I can admit that I messed up. You just need to admit that you still have feelings for me.”
         Did I? I wasn’t sure I did. I was angry at her for jerking me around but I wasn’t sure there were feelings left.
         “I am working through some things. It would be nice if someone gave a shit and understood.”
         I would not let her turn this around on me. I hadn’t asked for this shit. I’d tried to make it work. She’d refused to ever be more than a fuck buddy. I had wanted more and she’d made it clear that I could easily be replaced.
         “I