Left for Garbage

I can see her wanting to hurt my mom, not that it’s right, but I can see Denise doing that, I can’t see her hurting Deeley. She wouldn’t, and people can show me all their drummed-up so-called circumstantial evidence in the world, and I still won’t believe it, because unlike the rest of the world, I know my sister and I know her with Deeley, and she just wouldn’t hurt her, she couldn’t.
    I don’t know why she’s lied to the police , if that’s what she’s done. If so, it’s because she must be so frightened, and I think that’s the part people - the police in particular - should be focusing on. They shouldn’t be worried about some little white lies or confused directions or names she’s given them. They should be asking themselves what it is that’s scaring her so bad in the first place that’s making her too afraid to trust them and give them what she knows. If they do that, then they’ll find Deeley. And I see how the police see it too. I mean, sure it must look so bad to them, and I know unless she does tell them what she really knows, that she’ll have to stay in jail. Our family doesn’t have any money for that kind of bail - half a million dollars - and it’s what she’s not saying that made the judge so mad that he set it that high in the first place. I do get their viewpoint, it’s just not mine, and it’s never going to be. I’m almost certain that when I go to see her, she’ll clear it all up, and if I’m able to, if what I find out doesn’t put Deeley in worse danger from her kidnappers, then I’ll tell the police myself, or maybe I’ll just follow the leads and go get her and bring her home, and all this can be over with.
    Here’s what I know about the situation so far. Denise and Deeley had been li ving away from home for a month. Denise was traveling a lot for work and so she was using this Manny the Nanny guy that she knew to watch Deeley for her. I know my mom is telling everyone that she would have watched Deeley for Denise, and I hate to call my mom a liar, but I can see why maybe Denise wanted to use this Manny guy instead.
    See , Mom has a way of both wanting to be with Deeley, or saying she does, and then turning right around and calling Denise at work, or if she’s out or wherever, and demanding she come home and care for her own child. That’s what I was referring to earlier when I talked about the babysitting wars, and this has gone on since the beginning and it’s a huge issue for Denise, and probably why she made other arrangements for June because she didn’t want the hassle with Mom. Maybe too, and I don’t like to say this about my sister, but she can be even worse than mom, so maybe Denise used this Manny guy totally to show mom that, if she didn’t want to babysit Deeley, then she could be replaced and replaced totally to the point of not getting to be a part of her life at all.
    If that’s what my sister was thinking , and that’s why she did it, you know, left Deeley with this freak who has kidnapped her, then I can only imagine her guilt and that may be why she can’t tell the truth. I mean, she must feel so responsible, not to mention she’d never be able to admit that to my mom. Denise isn’t afraid of anyone in the world, but if she were, it would be my mom. God, I’m afraid of her and I’m not afraid to say it, but Denise has always been tougher than me.
    Okay , so after Denise and Deeley had been gone for a month, Mom started going crazy, missing Deeley. Well, she probably missed both of them but she wouldn’t say that, only that she missed Deeley. I know she was calling Denise all the time during June on her cell, the one my mom pays for, and I know from Mom that Denise was pretty much just blowing her off, telling her that she was out of town and that Deeley was either sleeping or with Manny the nanny whenever mom called, and mom was mad and getting madder every day, but she wasn’t scared or anything, not until they saw the notice on their old car, the one they let Denise drive.
    See , they received a notice of impound and it was dated at a time when Denise wasn’t even supposed to have been in town. They went to the tow place to get it, and the guy there told them it had apparently just run out of gas and been left in some parking lot.
    When they got there , my mom was freaking out because the bill was over five hundred for the tow, and because the car had been sitting there for a couple of weeks, but my dad was freaked