Lover Beware

quietly. “Because that could become a real issue later on in our relationship.”
    Damon opened his eyes to stare up at her. Sarah. Real. In his bedroom dressed in a skintight black suit that clung to every curve. His mouth watered and every cell in his body leapt to life in reaction. “It happens at those times I’ve been betrayed. I don’t know, really, a knee-jerk reaction I can’t seem to stop.”
    Sarah looked around for a chair, couldn’t find one, and shoved his legs over to make room on the bed. “Betrayal can be painful. In all honesty I haven’t had the experience. My sisters guard my back, so to speak.” She turned the full power of huge blue eyes on him. “Do you believe that having friends insist on your protection is a betrayal?”
    He could hear the sincerity in her voice. “You don’t understand.” How could she? How could anyone? “They had no right to hire you, Sarah. I quit my job, retired, if you want it neat and tidy. I have no intention of ever going back again. I cut all ties with that job and every branch of the military and the private sector.”
    “You tried to keep everyone around you safe by leaving.” It was a statement of fact. He would think she was crazy if she told him he carried Death with him. “What happened, Damon?”
    “Didn’t they give you a three-inch-thick file to read on me before they sent you here?” he demanded, trying to sustain his anger with her.
    Sarah simply waited, allowing the silence to lengthen and stretch between them. Sometimes silence was more eloquent than words. Damon was tense, his body rigid next to hers. His fingers were curled into a tight fist around the comforter. Sarah laid her hand gently over his.
    He could have resisted most anything, but not that silent gesture of camaraderie. He twisted his hand around until his fingers laced through hers. “They hit us about five blocks from work. Dan Treadway was with me. We planned to have dinner and go back to work. We both wanted to see if we could work out a glitch with a minor problem we were having with the project.” He chose his words carefully. He no longer worked for the government but his work had been classified.
    “They beat us both nearly unconscious before they threw us in the trunk. They didn’t even pretend to want our money. They drove to a warehouse, an old paint factory, and demanded information on a project we just couldn’t safely give them.”
    Sarah felt his hand tremble in hers. She had read the hospital report. Both men had been tortured. She knew Damon carried the scars from numerous burns on his torso. “I couldn’t give them what they wanted and poor Dan had no idea what they were even talking about.” He pressed his fingertips to his eyes as if the pressure would stop the pain. Stop the memory that never left him. “He never even worked on the project they wanted information about.”
    Sarah knew Dan Treadway had been shot in the knee and then again in the head, killing him. Damon had refused to turn over classified information that could have resulted in the deaths of several field agents. And he had steadfastly refused to give up the newest defense system. Damon started a fire with paint thinners, nearly blowing up the building. In his escape attempt he was crushed between the wall of the warehouse and the grille of a car, severely damaging his hip and leg.
    “I don’t want friends, Sarah. No one can afford to be my friend.”
    Sarah knew he spoke the truth. Death clung and searched for victims. She wouldn’t tell him, but often Death felt cheated. If that were the case, it would demand a sacrifice before it would be appeased. “Does the company know who these people are?” Sarah prompted.
    His dark gaze was haunted. “You would know that better than I would. Enemies of our country. Mercenaries. Hell, who cares? They wanted something my brain conceived, bad enough to kill an innocent man for it. I don’t want to think up anything worth killing over again. So here I am.”
    “Did you talk to anyone, a doctor?”
    He laughed. “Of course I did. The company made certain I talked to one, especially after I announced my retirement. There were a few loose ends and they didn’t want me leaving. I didn’t much care what they wanted.” He turned his head. Edgy. Brooding. “Is it part of your job to try to get me to go back?”
    Sarah shook her head. “I don’t tell people what to do, Damon. I don’t believe in that.” Her mouth curved.