Me Before You: A Novel

brought me into the conversation with Mary Rawlinson.
    ‘So Will tells me you’re in charge of him,’ she said. She had piercing blue eyes, and wrinkles that told of a life impervious to skincare routines.
    ‘I try,’ I said, glancing at him.
    ‘And have you always worked in this field?’
    ‘No. I used to … work in a cafe.’ I’m not sure I would have told anybody else at this wedding that fact, but Mary Rawlinson nodded approvingly.
    ‘I always thought that might be rather an interesting job. If you like people, and are rather nosy, which I am.’ She beamed.
    Will moved his arm back on to his chair. ‘I’m trying to encourage Louisa to do something else, to widen her horizons a bit.’
    ‘What did you have in mind?’ she asked me.
    ‘She doesn’t know,’ Will said. ‘Louisa is one of the smartest people I know, but I can’t make her see her own possibilities.’
    Mary Rawlinson gave him a sharp look. ‘Don’t patronize her, dear. She’s quite capable of answering for herself.’
    I blinked.
    ‘I rather think that you of all people should know that,’ she added.
    Will looked as if he were about to say something, and then closed his mouth. He stared at the table and shook his head a little, but he was smiling.
    ‘Well, Louisa, I imagine your job at the moment takesup an awful lot of mental energy. And I don’t suppose this young man is the easiest of clients.’
    ‘You can say that again.’
    ‘But Will is quite right about seeing possibilities. Here’s my card. I’m on the board of a charitable organization that encourages retraining. Perhaps you would like to consider something different in the future?’
    ‘I’m very happy working with Will, thank you.’
    I took the card that she proffered regardless, a little stunned that this woman would have the slightest interest in what I did with my life. But even as I took it, I felt like an imposter. There was no way I would be able to give up work, even if I knew what I wanted to learn. I wasn’t convinced I was the kind of person who would suit retraining. And besides, keeping Will alive was my priority. I was so lost in my thoughts that I briefly stopped listening to the two of them beside me.
    ‘ … it’s very good that you’ve got over the hump, so to speak. I know it can be crushing to have to readjust your life so dramatically around new expectations.’
    I stared at the remains of my poached salmon. I had never heard anyone speak to Will like that.
    He frowned at the table, and then turned back to her. ‘I’m not sure I am over the hump,’ he said, quietly.
    She eyed him for a moment, and glanced over at me.
    I wondered if my face betrayed me.
    ‘Everything takes time, Will,’ she said, placing her hand briefly on his arm. ‘And that’s something that your generation find it a lot harder to adjust to. You have all grown up expecting things to go your way almost instantaneously. You all expect to live the lives you chose.Especially a successful young man like yourself. But it takes time.’
    ‘Mrs Rawlinson – Mary – I’m not expecting to recover,’ he said.
    ‘I’m not talking about physically,’ she said. ‘I’m talking about learning to embrace a new life.’
    And then, just as I waited to hear what Will was going to say next, there was a loud tapping of a spoon on a glass, and the room hushed for the speeches.
    I barely heard what they said. It seemed to me to be one puffed-up penguin-suited man after another, referring to people and places I didn’t know, provoking polite laughter. I sat and chewed my way through the dark-chocolate truffles that had arrived in silver baskets on the table, and drank three cups of coffee in quick succession so that as well as feeling drunk I felt jittery and wired. Will, on the other hand, was a picture of stillness. He sat and watched the guests applaud his ex-girlfriend, and listened to Rupert drone on about what a perfectly wonderful woman she was. Nobody acknowledged him. I don’t know if that was because they wanted to spare his feelings, or because his presence there was actually a bit of an embarrassment. Occasionally Mary Rawlinson leant in and muttered something into his ear and he nodded slightly, as if in agreement.
    When the speeches finally ended, an army of staff appeared and began clearing the centre of the room for dancing. Will leant in to me. ‘Mary reminded me there is a very good hotel up the road. Ring them and see if we can stay