Now or Never

your ex did, not because of anything I’ve done. And you know what, that’s cool, I get it. I guess we all have our baggage.”
    “That’s not the reason.” His troubled eyes met hers, and she felt her heart rate speed up. She wasn’t sure if she should press the issue, but she couldn’t help herself. She saw a window and had to take it.
    “Would you ditch the blonde?”
    “I already told you we’re not dating.”
    Grayson rolled her eyes and dropped her head back against the seat.
    “You also told me you were going out with the guys.”
    “I was. They arrived after you left.”
    “I see.” Clearly, she wasn’t going to get what she wanted out of this conversation, and honestly she wasn’t even sure if she really wanted an actual relationship anyway. Like he said he was leaving for three months and would be gone often with his job. She was somewhat enjoying her newfound freedom, and the opportunity to explore different people. Maybe she would take Christopher up on his offer and see some new places.
    No she wouldn’t. He was married, for crying out loud.
    “Fine.” Grayson sighed and looked out the window.
    “Fine, what?”
    “We’ll just keep this crazy mind game we have going on. I can’t seem to walk away from you even though every bone in my body believes you are lying about the girl. I think she’s your girlfriend, if not more.”
    Derrick tapped the steering wheel. “I wasn’t going to see you again after last night.”
    “Oh really, is that right? You walk in the bar with another girl and you’re going to stop seeing me? That makes a lot of sense.” He was seriously starting to piss her off.
    “Touché. As you can see I wasn’t able to walk away either.”
    “Well, isn’t this an interesting predicament we’ve gotten ourselves into.”
    “That’s one way to look at it.”
    They pulled into yet another hotel. By now, they visited almost all the hotels in the area. She thought it was absurd he spent the money for just a couple of hours. “Stay the night with me,” she said nervously.
    He took a deep breath, but didn’t say anything.
    “I take that as a no? Maybe you should just take me home.”
    “I didn’t say no. Why don’t I just say we’ll see?”
    “I guess we will,” Grayson mumbled and jumped out of the SUV.
    Going to hotels was starting to make Grayson feel dirty. It had once been exciting, but now she felt like he was ashamed to be seen in public with her. Which was absurd, since she’s the one that made the no dating rule to begin with. Part of her wished she could go back to the day they first met and let the relationship take its normal course instead of setting stupid guidelines, but there was no rewind button on life.
    Derrick was even more aggressive than usual. He roughly pushed her legs apart shoved two fingers into her while his tongue flicked her clit. “Did Christopher do this?” She squirmed beneath his touch.
    Grayson shook her head yes. She really wanted to piss him off. She knew it wasn’t nice, but she couldn’t help herself. Her reply just seemed to turn him on even more. Her hands gripped his head, and her body shuddered when an orgasm ripped through her body in waves. God he was incredible.
    “Turn over.” Grayson laid still and smiled up at him.
    “Turn over, Gray.” His green eyes bore into hers daring her not to compile.
    She turned on her hands and knees, but he pushed her flat onto the bed and shoved his cock deep into her. “Did he do this?”
    Gasping, and unable to speak, she just shook her head no. She couldn’t even move with his weight on her. He grabbed her hair and pulled her head back. “Did he fuck you good?”
    Grayson groaned and mumbled, “no.” Her pussy was dripping wet. She should have been freaked out by the questions, but it made her body tingle all over. Excitement prickled the back of her neck.
    “What?”
    “I said no,” Grayson groaned as he slammed into her.
    “Don’t lie to me,” he growled, “you enjoyed it didn’t you?” He continued to pound away at her and she nodded her head yes. He let go of her hair and whispered, “That wasn’t so hard was it?”
    He grabbed her waist and pulled her back up onto her hands and knees. One of his calloused hands caressed her throat. “Are you going to see him again?” Suddenly, all she could think about was Joshua’s hands wrapped around her throat. She tensed up, and turned to look at him as if reminding herself he was not Josh. Her eyes must