Now or Never

have given away her fear.
    “Gray? Are you ok?”
    She blinked back tears, “Yes, I’m fine. Sorry, I’m just being stupid.”
    Derrick pulled out and she rolled over.
    “I would never hurt you. You know that right?” He ran his fingers along her collar bone.
    “I know you wouldn’t.” And she really did know that. He would never intentionally physically hurt her. She wasn’t sure why she knew that or felt that way, but she believed that one hundred percent.
    “Are you sure? If you think I’m too aggressive I’ll ratchet it back. I didn’t mean to scare you.”
    “No, I like it. I love it really. I guess your hand on my throat just kind of freaked me out in that moment. Seriously, it’s not you. It’s just a bad movie that plays in my head sometimes.”
    “Fucking bastard. I should have done more damage to him when I had the chance.”
    “I think he got the picture.” Grayson ran her hand up the length of his cock, and he quickly grew hard again. She wasn’t going to let a memory of Josh ruin her time with Derrick. She gripped him tightly working him with her hand. “I don’t know if I’ll see Christopher again.” She whispered. “He wants me to though.”
    “Will you?” Derrick settled himself between her legs.
    “Yes,” she whispered. Why she said yes she wasn’t sure? Did she really plan on seeing him again? Or was she just trying to get under his skin?
    “What if I said I didn’t want you to?” He slowly eased himself in and out of her.
    “I wouldn’t see him again,” she said breathlessly as her heart raced. His face was only inches away. He grasped her wrists firmly and then slowly moved his hands down her arms sending a shiver through her body.
    “Do you mean that?” His eyes searched hers as he slid deeper into her, and she wrapped her legs around his waist and pulled him closer.
    “Yes. I only want you.”
    His lips came crushing down on hers. He kissed her like he needed her as much as he needed air to breath. Their pace became frantic moving fast and hard. He plunged deep within her as if he intended to penetrate her soul. A low growl came out of his mouth, and his body shuddered as he came inside of her.
    “Did you mean what you said?” Grayson laid her head on his chest and listened to the rhythm of his heart beat as it slowed down.
    “What?”
    “You don’t want me to see Christopher again?”
    “I didn’t say that,” he said as he ran his hand through her hair.
    “You implied it.”
    “Gray, I told you. You can see and do whatever you want. I’m not going to ask you not to. It wouldn’t be fair.”
    “Why not? Is it because you have a girlfriend?”
    “I’m not getting into that again with you. It’s because I’m leaving and it’s not the right time to start a relationship.”
    “If she’s not your girlfriend, then why is she always with you?”
    “She’s a friend. I’ve known her for years, and she’s on our adventure racing team.”
    Grayson thought about it, and it seemed plausible.
    “I’d wait for you,” Grayson said, feeling completely exposed.
    “I’m not going to ask you to wait. That would be selfish.”
    “What if I said I like when you’re selfish with me? What if I said I wanted to belong to you and no one else?”
    “Don’t say that.” His hand moved to her thigh, and she could feel his renewed arousal pressed against her.
    “I mean it. I know it’s crazy, but I want this. I want you.”
    He shook his head no. “Sorry Gray, it’s not going to happen.”
    Coldness passed through her body. She knew he wanted her as much as she wanted him. She could feel it when he touched her. Sense it when he looked at her. Why wouldn’t he admit it? Probably, because of the damn blonde chick. Bitch.
    “I’m going to wait for you.”
    “Like I said free will.”
    “Stay the night with me.”
    “Not tonight, maybe another time.”
    Anger rose up into her chest. She was willing to give him everything, and he couldn’t even spend one night with her.
    “Well then I guess I should go,” Grayson said sharply and jerked away from him, but he pulled her back. Just like he always did—pushed her away and pulled her back. His lips found hers, and his tongue ran along the top of her lip causing a sigh to escape.
    She pulled away. “Derrick. I think I’m falling…”
    “Shh, don’t say it Gray. You can’t take it back once the words are out. Let’s see where things are when I get back. You’ll probably have moved on by