Psy & Changelings 05 - Hostage to Pleasure

an odd kind of breathlessness.
    Dorian went very quiet around her.
    She fought the pull, knowing it would tear her from Amara. And while Amara was her jailer, Ashaya was also her keeper. Without Ashaya, Amara would kill, would murder, would become the very monster Ashaya had spent her life trying to prevent her from becoming. “I was born first,” she whispered. “She’s my responsibility.”
    Dorian’s body stiffened for a moment. Then he shifted to drop a kiss on top of her head. “So was I.”
    “Will you tell me about her?”
    He pulled her tighter against his warmth. “She was laughter,” he said, a painful roughness in his tone. “Nothing seemed to make her sad. The only time I ever saw Kylie cry as a child was after someone taunted me for not being able to shift.” His voice caught. “She was so mad. She said it didn’t matter to her, that I was the brother she would’ve chosen if she’d been given the choice. God, she was a fighter.”
    Unbidden, an image formed in Ashaya’s head, of a girl with Dorian’s charm and mischief in her eyes. “Did she look like you?”
    “Same hair, same eyes. But her smile—a knockout. She could talk anyone into anything.” A husky laugh. “Even when she pissed me off, she could make me smile. She’d tell me stupid ‘knock, knock’ jokes until I broke. Then she’d hug me, call me her favorite brother, and smile because she knew she was forgiven.”
    Squeezing her eyes shut, Ashaya swallowed the knot in her throat. “She was precious to you.”
    “A piece of my heart died with her. I don’t know if it will ever grow back.”
    “That’s okay,” she managed to whisper. “That piece was hers to take.”
    “I miss her.” He buried his face in the curve of her neck as she rose on tiptoe to wrap her arms around him. “I miss her calling me up to pick her up from some club at one in the morning. I miss her telling me those stupid jokes. I miss her laugh. I miss her every damn minute of every day!” His body shuddered and damp heat bloomed against her neck.
    Blinded by her own tears, she held this powerful leopard, this sentinel.
    She held him as he cried . . . as he stole the last remaining pieces of her own heart.
     
Forty-five minutes later, Dorian watched dawn begin its stealthy creep across the sky and felt an odd kind of peace take hold in his heart. Perhaps it would last only a moment, perhaps longer. What mattered was that he knew the peace was a gift from the woman who moved so softly inside his home while he stood watch outside.
    He’d tried to tell her to go back to sleep, but she’d shaken her head. Twice now, she’d come to tell him she could feel Amara getting closer. Once she’d worried that her twin was lost in the dark, a catch in her voice. When he heard her footsteps getting closer again, he expected another update.
    But she exited with a cup of coffee in hand. “Here.”
    “Thanks.” He looked intently at her, knowing he’d have to be careful with his mate—force of habit might make her hide what he needed to see. As he’d expected, her face bore no visible remnants of her sleepless night or the words spoken between them . . . until he looked into her eyes.
    Those eyes, so fucking beautiful. Like one of the lakes up in the Sierra, before the snows. Silver-blue and so clear you could see the detail of every reflected leaf. “We’ll do everything we can to take her alive.”
    A coolly Psy nod, but her hands had curled into fists.
    “Lucas has her trail.” His alpha had called ten minutes ago to confirm the sighting. “I asked him to let her reach us.”
    Her breath came out in a soft hush of sound. “Thank you.”
    “Luc and Dezi are hanging back. They don’t want to chance being picked up by a telepathic scan.”
    “That’s smart, but”—she shook her head—“I think she’s so focused on me at this point, she’s blind to anything else.”
    “Yeah, that’s what Luc said.” He took a sip of his coffee, letting his gaze linger on her. She was beautiful in the muted hues between dark and dawn, would be glorious when the sun’s rays hit. “Apparently, she’s not making even an amateurish attempt to hide her trail. From what he saw while tracking her, it looks like she lost her way a couple of times, but then that internal compass between the two of you seems to have put her back on the right path.”
    “I’m glad she’s not lost.” She took a hesitant step toward him. Exultation racing through his