Psy & Changelings 05 - Hostage to Pleasure

weapon at the opposing wall. “You win today but what about other days? How will you protect him then?”
    “Dorian can protect himself.” Her hand began to shake. “Let it go, Amara. Just let it go.”
    “No. I’m a monster,” Amara said with cool indifference. “I’ll remain a monster. Kill me or you’ll spend a lifetime waiting for me to strike.”
    Ashaya’s hand wavered. “I can’t.” Because no matter what, Amara was her sister. “God help me, but I can’t.” Not like this, not in cold blood.
    “Then we’re at a stalemate.” Amara looked at Dorian, then back at Ashaya. “You can’t kill me, and I won’t kill you. Nor am I unselfish enough to kill myself. Yet we both know I can’t be allowed to live.”
    Ashaya envied her sister her emotionless calm. “You care nothing for your life?”
    “My life . . .” A pause at last. “Have you seen the new network we’re linked into?”
    Ashaya gave a shaky nod. The Web of Stars, Dorian had called it. A minuscule network in comparison to the PsyNet, but instead of isolated white stars on black, this network, this web, was filled with connections. Golden threads that tied each star to another, sometimes to more than one. And in between streamed ribbons of color, streamers of joy and light, hope and forgiveness.
    “Those pieces of color, they keep getting inside me and now I have these thoughts.” Shoving both hands into her hair, Amara held her head. “I see with a clarity that wasn’t a part of me before. I see that some lives should never come into being. The cost-benefit ratio is too unbalanced.”
    “You’re brilliant.”Ashaya dropped the weapon to her side. “Why can’t you use that power to help our people?”
    “Because my neural pathways have been permanently compromised. Perhaps I was born that way.” Amara lowered her hands. “Or perhaps I became that way as a result of Silence. The point is moot. I have marked sociopathic tendencies. Those can’t be remedied.”
    “What about Keenan? Is he going to remain safe from you?”
    Shadows in blue. “These new thoughts . . . I find myself hesitant to kill a child born of my body.” She shook her head. “But don’t trust me. That decision may one day change.”
    “I have the same DNA,” Ashaya persisted, realizing that Amara had set herself up to be killed. “We had the same upbringing.”
    “I can’t become good , big sister. This is the only gesture I might ever be capable of making.” Amara didn’t say any more. She didn’t need to. Facts were facts. If Amara lived, she would do evil. But to kill her? Ashaya turned to Dorian, lost. “What do I do?”
    Dorian had once thought nothing could penetrate the scientific shell around Ashaya. Now he knew different in so many ways—but this link with Amara, it had the potential to destroy her. “Can you control her?”
    Ashaya shook her head. “No.”
    “Incorrect, Ashaya.” Amara raised an eyebrow. “If I allow you to embed a control link inside me, you can.”
    “Is she right, Shaya?”
    Ashaya’s fingers brushed his as she shifted to stand beside him. “Yes. Not mind control but—”
    “—a leash,” Amara completed. “Long enough to let me pretend I’m free but short enough to keep me from indulging in things my twin would deem unconscionable.”
    “Will it hurt you?” he asked Ashaya, ignoring Amara.
    “No.” Her fingers closed around his. “Our twin bond exists whether we like it or not. If Amara lets me in that deep, then I’d become the one in control. She’d lose the ability to enter my mind, but I’d be able to monitor her at will.”
    “You’d be her keeper your entire lifetime.”
    Ashaya looked at him. “I have help now. I have you.”
    The leopard inside him growled in a rush of possessive pleasure. “Glad you’re finally beginning to understand that.”
     
“Amara’s in our web,” Lucas said to Sascha as they stood outside the hospital. “What does that mean?”
    Sascha leaned against the wall that faced the manicured front lawn. “It means there’s darkness in the Web now.”
    “How do we fight it?”
    “We don’t.” She thought back to when Faith had joined them, to the revelation about the DarkMind. “Amara is fundamentally flawed, but she exists. She’s part of the world. We watch her, we manage her, but we don’t imprison her on the psychic level. The instant we do, we sow the seeds of a split inside our own web.”
    “I don’t like it.” Lucas’s tone was